Its been hell of a week! I only attended classes on Monday and Wednesday. Tuesday had to lepaskan secara tak rela kelas Multimedia Puan Gina because the appointment with MiSC corporate affair representative was on the same morning. We - Phia, Arie, Cwoo and I went there not expecting much. Maybe just a simple interview. We were surprised that they actually prepared a room for us, made powerpoint slideshow regarding the topic we need (Corporate Comm dept, CSR and internal programmes), projected and presented it as if we are investors for their company and gave us goody bags to bring home! Damn they're good! They really take care of the company's image.

I was almost in love with the presenter. Cik Hanim Hamid is young and yet she's the Group Corporate Affair Manager. She controls one of the division which handles MiSC and its 8 subsidiaries. I was in awe when she started speaking. Fluent English with articulate diction. And I absolutely love the fact that she can pull off a pixie cut do eventhough she is chubby. Her presentation was perfect. I didn't get to ask much question because she will answer it while presenting or I asked it ahead of time before she got to the topic. It was indeed well prepared.

Learning about MiSC surprises me, didn't expect a shipping ad vessel company to conduct CSR programs. And they do it many times annually. Its actually handled by the departments individually rather than 1 program per company. But they do have 1 main program - Navigate Your Career (NYC). It is targeted for both university students and school students but with different objective. For university students they are offering help in soft skills such as preparing for interview, polishing presentation and speaking skills as well as teamwork. reviews shown that a lot of them who joined the event made tremendous changes. 1 particular FELDA boy who was very shy was grabbed by Bank Negara even before MiSC got hold of him upon graduation. That's how great the programme was. Of course I wanted in! As for school students, the objective is more on promoting ALAM (Akademi Laut Malaysia) for them. As for this one, Arie wants in.

We forgot to take pictures with her but we got nearly 2 hours of video footage. I can't show you that, its too boring. Who would want to see it. Kesian Arie lenguh-lenguh tangan record video. And Cwoo tak habis-habis mengantuk . Going for the interview was definitely worth it. Walaupun parking charges RM8, its worth it. If they prepare breakfast, lagi worth it!

Next!

Thurday and Friday I went to an international conference hosted by UNISEL at Grand Bluewave Hotel. I was among the 4 students who were selected to represent our F-cult to do coverage of the event. Imran and Aking were assigned as photographers while Fiefie and I will be writing about the event. The 2 day programs was FUN! We got to work with people from both Unisel campus. Lets face it, all of us is under the same organization but we didn't know each other existed. That morning, the head MPP - Shafrizal (waaahh tau nama dah!) actually asked which Unisel I was from to give my tags. Sedih kan?


Whilst there, I got to know:

• the kakak-kakak from finance who we all loveeeee to hate,
  
• the very very very soft spoken MPP boys (memang tu requirements jadi MPP ke?),
  
• kakak librarian who are actually twins - I never knew that,
  
• the who's who of Unisel: Prof Zaidi, Prof Kushairi, Ibu Fonny, Puan Yuslina, etc,
• educationalist from the South East region and a few other countries,
  
• prominent business entrepreneur like Madam Noni Purnowofrom of Silver Bird (an Indonesian taxi service company) and Pak Mustain Sjadzali of PT Citra Panji Manunggal (an Indonesian pipeline company. Fiefie and I have a minor crush on him actually. He's such a gentleman!)
• the 8 psychologist to be from Unisel BJ - Naz, Vino, Ara, Mizi, Uan, Along, Amy, and Fatihin
• my current role model: Cik Wan Puspa Melati Wan Abdul Halim, 27 year old beauty with brains, HOD of psychology in Unisel BJ, Oxford grad, was the psychology lecturer at my F-cult and currently pursuing her PhD. Wow! (Just googled her and she's in portal perfileman Malaysia? hihihi)

It was great fun, great exposure and definitely a tiring experience. Oh! May I add there's a few Filipino boys who caught my attention? He was tall and fair and bald very much like Samuel Rizal. Turns out his father was one of the speakers there.The other is his friend who has a mullet haircut but got the long hair braided. And, I got harrased by 2 busboys. Scary kot! Everytime I pass by or look up I 'll catch them looking at me. On the final day Miss Ad actually told them off "tak malu ke kacau anak dara orang?" and they replied "Nak malu buatpe?"

Ewwwwww! Memang taknak lah kan! Of all the people, I mean there's almost 300 delegates and organisers, why you 2?? WHYYYYYY!!!!!
Thank you Puan Azian and Miss Ad for the opportunity. Really appreciate it.


Next in my list SEAchange conference in Putrajaya on 18-21 November. Hwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee accept my invitation if I sent you suggestion or email of it. It will increase my chances on winning the trip. Nak bayar sendiri tak mampu. Its RM3 frikking thousand! Menetes air mata tengok tadi. Literally okay! If I got the chance to go, I'll get to meet Nando Parrado, my hero. He's the ultimate survivor. You've seen the movie ALIVE starring Ethan Hawk? Or know about the plane bringing a rugby troop heading to Chile but crash in Andes mountains? I was about 10 when I watched the movie. This movie shocked me because in order to survive they resorted to cannibalism.They have to eat and there were not other food supplies other than the deceased. I always thought there were only 2 survivors from the accident and I never knew their names. I only remembered 1 character who refused to eat his friends and will always check if they are eating his sister or mother. He is Nando Parrado, one of the 2 who hike the mountains to get help for the 16 who survived. And he, will be speaking at the SEAchange summit.

I cried reading about him, talking about him, watching the movie, and now for the little chance of me seeing him in person. I hope I'm selected for the event. If that didn't happen, Mr. Parrado you always will be my hero.

Tonight I want to talk about regrets, but in a positive point of view. I want to talk about the 15 people who made me feel, but not enough to make it happen. I can't name names because as I said, I don't know who is reading Serendipity and anything I write can be used against me. Therefore you're in luck! Its a story, a confession and a quiz. Lets start now!

I Don't Wanna Know - Mario Winans
At 15, first deep crush was a Pan Asian boy with fluent speech in English, good looks and was a tahfiz. Impressive I'd say. I was twinkling eyes every night telling Abah stories about him. 5 years later, we are only Facebook friends. He moved abroad and is now a DJ. Im just hoping in some way, he never left that tahfiz side of him.

Izinkan - VE
Sweet 16! I aint that sweet with curly bangs that curled up to form devil horns on my head. What's sweet was he thought I was cute. His preference for Chinese looks, sometimes Chinese girls and in my case - me. Its funny to be reminded that sometimes I caught him staring at me. He was weird. So weird that I distance myself from him. 4 years later, he's one of my closest friends. He's still weird but he cleaned up good. Got a great girlfriend too.

Bukan Diriku - Samsons
17 was crucial as I'm in my last year of school and unlike everybody else, my list of boys in my social networking is almost nil. Its expected that I will have no date for prom (as if Im allowed to go). He was a reality TV contestant with voice that melt hearts. I was a stalker then and was crushed when he got himself a 14 y-o girlfriend. Got to know him after school ended and boy was I glad I didn't get myself attached and lost to him. Yerp, lost as in you know. Pervert! 3 years later, he's one of my cousin's close friends. Ironic aint it? I still choose not to be in contact with him.

Officially Missing You - Tamia
Tall, thin, turquoise. That was my first impression. We both just finished SPM and school, its on a holiday trip when I met him. Not the first time though, we've met before but at 12 what's there to feel about? He was cute, but we didn;t instantly connect. It kinda take time. Maybe its meant for us to be platonic. After all, his parents have keen eyes for another. 3 years later, we are still great friends. He's the guy I wouldn't mind going out just the 2 of us. We go on movie dates occasionally, strictly platonic. I think its crossing over to the family line.

Love Today - Grace Kelly
Sometime later during working at PDI after school before uni, I was 18. This one I didnt notice happening. He was a friend! We usually go out by group which included his bestfriend the Sweet Sixteen guy. I didn't know by answering his calls every night means I might be interested in him too. Excuse me, let me rephrase that. I didn't know he was interested! We had a bit of cold shoulder for a while. But it got sorted by time. 2 years later, we're still friends. We still go out in groups together. We are still the ones who are single within the group. Nope, dating him never cross my mind. He's a friend! Have always seen him as nothing more than a friend.

Sayang Sayang - Alif Aziz
First semester in college! End of 2007, that would make me 18. Just turned 18. He was the guy I first noticed during registration (I thought he's gay but that's just me trying to not like him). He is good looking, the definition of tall, dark and handsome. Course of events lead us into the same group during orientation, classmates, same group of friends. Was really close to him that people around us thought we were dating. BUT he's taken since they both were 16. i did liked him. 2 years later, Im still here trying to finish of uni. He's barely there. Turns out he's not my type of guy anyways.

All Apologies - Nirvana
I was 19. Just hit the legal age. The start of it was the start of a lot of things. For one, it was the first time I pull an all-nighter. Sneaked out from dorm, late night movie and lepak until the gate opens the next morning. Liking him, I learned to accept a person pass the physical appearance. I liked him for who he was. I learned about accepting a person despite his ugly side and his past. And best of all I learned that I do have the ability to withhold my attention for solid 6 months. Well, I tried a few time but I always revert. I thought I have short attention span. He's definitely my type but its written we'll not share a path. Im glad I got to know him, you're a great friend. Because I remember your date clearly - 1 year 10 months and 15 days later, he's dating the best girl a guy could have. Take care of this one, she's the one God have been saving for you. Treat her right. I mean it!

Kau - Ello
This guy was just in the passing. I didn't know him well but I can feel him giving his attention to me. The second time we met was at a bazaar, we were helping our friends. When we went to lunch together, he offered his hand when we cross the streets, I pretended not to see it because I was too stunned to react. Then during lunch he carried food for me, offered to feed me some of his. He sent me home that night (I know! Not safe - 2nd time I met him). I did have a thing for a while but Im not sure about guys who treats all girls the same. Maybe he's a gentleman or maybe he's just too friendly with everyone. 1 year and 6 months later, we only contact through Facebook. Sad, I know. Well we were not from the same group of friends to begin with. I can't just barge in and hang out with them.

(Im sorry I dont think I have a song for you)
He's younger and eager and a big flirt. Will shamelessly talk about his marriage to me. God! Such a vain. Im not at all sure if he really likes me. See that's the thing about sweet talkers, you just don' know if he's fooling around or if he really is interested. I try not to care about this one because I seriously hate marriage talk. Face it, please have stability first to talk about marriage with a girl. Any girl. This boy is now studying in another state, he contacts me sometimes asking me out. I'll try not to think about that too. He needs to get into the friend zone first.

Creep - Radiohead
Hello cutie! You are definitely the definition of cute. Through you I learned that cute boys is just a preety face. You're empty for me to hold a conversation with. I like having you around though, you are fun to be with. Now that I know you better I realised that I never really like you. I like you because you're cute. Hahaha I miss hanging out with you. Its hard to see you around now that you've graduated. Stick friends koginavaan! (Kenapa tiba-tiba pakai kata ganti diri kedua? Salah format dah ni!)

Untitled - Maliq & D'Essentials
Uh oh. He's a sweet talker. Older, mature. Respected, well-known. Not available. Friends among friends. The one who got away? Did I mention he's taken? Sigh. I choose not to elaborate but he is the exact reason I should never get involve with a sweet talker. Its hard not to fall even though your conscience is telling no. Hmm, he's away now. In a different country, moving ahead with life =)

Scars - Papa Roach
Im sure you know who you are. And Im sure everyone around me can at least get the second guess correct. I wouldn't write much as you are paranoid of people talking bad about you. Not that I'm going to. And there's a whole post label for you anyways. There's even another blog. I don't mind ever getting to know you. I just regretted not getting to know you enough before. Oh well, past is past right? Lets look forward. Have a nice life! =)

Save Me - Remy Zero
He's another cutiepie who have always been there. I didn't paid much attention to him until we suddenly got closer. Oh wait I think I'll just point out things bout him. Not much thing to say. He's just a minor crush. Couldn't get pass that as he had dated 3 of my friends and currently dating another friend. He's a great help though. And a friend for all. I think he would make a better friend than a boyfriend.

Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson
Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh! The definition of ended before it started. Please refer to posts about Z and matters related to getting dumped, dooped, fooled, gamed, played. I don't know what happen to him. I stopped any contact altogether. May you have a future with the girl you are having a relationship despite I-don't-believe-in-relationships-because-it-will-lead-to-a-break-up. You know, you shouldn't have called me just to play your guitar and sing for me. Of course I think its a serenade!

Witwicky, I dont have a song for you yet. And Im not exactly sure if its going on or moving on. Me and my heart, we got issues. Hahahaha.

Footnote: Song titles may reflect the person's favourite song OR the song I relate to the person OR the song I dedicate to them OR the song that represent the situation. Confusing isn't it?

Maybe you don't read my blog, maybe you do, or maybe - just maybe, someone will pass the news to you. I hereby accept the challenge. I will get coverage on my programme. I will. I'll prove it to you. Where there is will, there is way. Thank you for setting the bar for me, its a stepping stone for myself. Sincerely. If i came through with this, its you I am thankful to. Who knows maybe I'll get a colourful recommendation letter from you? =)

Its scary somehow when I told people I like him, they are okay with it. They're glad. Yeah it is a usual respond. You tell your friends you like a person, they'll support you. Well my friends, if I tell them I like someone they'll give me the dirt on that person. And they are frank about it too.

With Witwicky, its the same. I got all the dirt I need (and some I didn't need or want) AND I got blessings. Pelik kan? That is the weirdest part! My kakak-kakak bertiga was WHOA! They really want me to go all out. Suruh try eventhough he is already dating (tapi status single), saying words like its not impossible. The only person who said NO was my Abah. He said something about vanity. Character judgement through pictures. Mama said he's good looking.

HE IS! That's the whole deal. It surprises me that the girls lingering around him wanting some attention are EVERY GIRL! And he's the kind who sweet talks. My most hated traits in a guy. But I always fall for them. Oh and one of the girls who flirts with him publicly on his FB is a classmate of mine. She rarely opens her mouth in class! Diam-diam ubi berisi!

Ingatkan kali ni tersuka orang low profile, case pun akan jadi low profile juga. I estimated wrongly! I forgot the fact that he is plastered with good looks on his face. Of course there'll be fans tailing him. Therefore, lets just let our hopes die. Too small of a circa.

Kak G told me she was in my position once. But look where she is now? Married with 2 kids. With the guy that she wanted. Alaaaaaaa bagi harapan lah cerita macam ni!

Dah. Taknak fikir. Nak pi buat degree dulu.

Miss Ad, if only liking all I want is easy. And if the world is mine, you know who I would go for first. JOHNNY DEPP!

1. I've been procrastinating too damn much. Too much work. Too many things too catch up.
2. Been skipping too many classes. Why? Overslept. Therefore, i missed out on things Im supposed to be studying.
3. Economics = numbers. Its hard for me because my mindset says that numbers are hard. Shit!
4. Audio Video Prod, I can't kike this subject because of the lecturer!
5. Website building for Puan Gina..sigggggggghhhh!
6. Corporate Communication, sigh.
7. Research Methodology, OMG!
8. Financially sinking but I dont want to ask money from my parents.
9. Relationshits.
10. MUET and final exam next month.
11. Coming up with a dummy for that proposal journal.
    
12. Cold shoulders.
13. Uncontrolable annoyance.
14. Unwise time and task managements.
15. Big ass sloth in me.
16. The inability to be productive collectively.
17. I think Im drowning, if it were me alone I think I'll live. But Im afraid its not just me.
18. I dont know if Im dragging them down with me or they are sinking me. Pfffttt!
19. Unobtainable shot term goal -> Witwicky.
20. Distressing long term goal -> Flying off for degree
    

Kan dah cakap, orang rupa macam dia memang almost always attached. Was warned earlier that he is linked to someone, not in a relationship but not available nonetheless. So how come every time, this time included, its among friends again?

Awal-awal kalau boleh taknak any relationship dalam uni. Sebab its hard. Circle of friends terlalu sempit. Dahlah Im not into people yang dah attached. Kali ni boleh kan pulak attached to a girl who is my friend! Okay, so she is not anybody close, but she's a friend.

I respect friendships. I think its stupid to quarrel over a guy. Tapi Im just simply annoyed this have to happen again. Again!

Arghhh!!! It haven't even started. Mungkin betullah, kamu terlalu hotstuff untuk saya. Toldya!

Amek kau title! These are the highlights.

1. Jejaka-jejaka hensem ni panjat tempat yang I pun tak berani nak naik sebab gayat semata-mata nak gantung tanglung dan decorate stage.
2. Our Raya decoration with Chinese theme celebrated near Deepavali.
3. Classmates yang rajin pulak datang, thanks korang! <3
4. My best girls. <3333
5. Dean's List nyer session tak teratur and Im really disappointed tak dapat tengok slideshow Puan Gina.
6. Lecturers bikin havoc secara senyap-senyap ehe ;)
7. Kepuasan bergambar dan ambil gambar =]
8. Sesi class photos "I dont care who you care, where you're from, don't care what you did, as long as you love me!" TERBAEK!
9. Joget lambak!
10. Event yang memadai lah. Thanks for coming korang! Tanpa kedatangan anda semua, siapalah kami dan apalah yang terjadi.
11. Witwicky!

Nah teaser sikit untuk gadis-gadis. Lecturers saya included, aha!

Kawan-kawan cakap dia single, lecturer cakap dia baru je tak available.
Kawan-kawan cakap jangan mengharap, nanti hati sakit.
Seorang yang terlebih supportive pula cakap, kalau berani pergilah try.

Selalu jadi macam ni! Kalau dah tersuka, dia tak suka. Dia dah ada steady girlfriend. Dia dah nak kahwin. Dia dah kahwin. Aih! Mana tak malas kalau asyik jadi macam tu.

Anyway! Raya tak habis-habis jugak lagi rupanya. Nonstop okay! Isnin open invitation kat Unisel which was terlalu happening sampai tak makan sebab ramai sangat orang jadi malas nak beratur.

Selasa kat rumah Erin & Ain, Timah memeriahkan suasana dengan dress masing-masing. Rare tak open house raya orang lain pakai kebaya, kami serumah pakai dress. Lepastu ambik gambar kat balkoni 14 orang. Nasib baik tak roboh. Kejutan di situ adalah housemates Erin terdiri daripada orang-orang yang tak disangka seperti bekas-bekas madu sesetengah Timah. Haha!

Malam ni invitation to Resak pulak. I only have 2 friends there, and those who know me well should expect a certain way of answer from me. Oh yeah, Im not going. Thanks for the invitation though.

Esok setakat ni tiada khabar berita open house lagi. (Updated: Invitation to Kiwie's at Keramat. Taktau lagi pergi ke tak. Timah belum berbincang.) Tapi Jumaat ada raya gathering fakulti Komunikasi & Media. Nak pakai baju cantik-cantik. Manalah tahu kan? Hahahaha.

Sabtu kenduri di Kuantan! Makan dan makan lagi!

Bagus kan anak bertuah ni? Well mama, your ayam berlada serai sangat sedap dan pedas tu yang TERjatuh pinggan tu. I hope I managed to throw away all the broken pieces. Tak pasal je nanti orang terpijak pastu kene marah.

Im currently uploading photos from the open houses I went this past 2 weekends and also from the events our faculty have been having. Since internet is too slow to surf and page hop, I decided to blog. Nope, not going to blog about the pleasurable people who opened their doors and serve us great food, or the people I share those dining experience with, or even about the feast of food. Penat lah cerita makan. Hari-hari buat. Tapi hujung minggu extra effort untuk makan. Haha!

Take Kak Nana's open house just now, they served kambing golek, nasi kerabu, laksa pahang and laksa penang, keropok lekor goreng. Each of it was really good! Memang tak keluar rumah asyik dok makan je lah. Plus, its among family. The people who can compete, and compliment your eating behaviour. Terbaik! Esok to Mak Lang and Mummy Kim's house in Kajang pulak. Fuh! Tengok, there I go blabbing about food jugak akhirnya.

Went to watch Papadom midnight show last night at Pavi. With Abang E, Hani, and the Syisters (Ya, Syaniz, Pinat). Lepak with them was fun and the movie was funny and scary at the same time. Think Abah stalking me. Or your dad stalking you. Haaaaaaaaa! Que Abang Ayis and Arwen. More like Kak Lisha and Arwen kot? Hehehe

Next point! Eheemmmmm Yours Truly took her MUET speaking exam last Wednesday, and by Thursday morning it seems like other people around her have gotten her result before her. Sungguh tak best! Its literally stale news when I finally got it. Habis bragging rights kena hijack. Dahlah I have to pretend to come to the Language Faculty to sign up for MUET seminar to get that news. Anyways, Band6. Wuhuhuhuhuw!!! Untuk siapa yang tak faham scheme pemarkahan MUET its the highest rank. Equivalent to A+. Maaf lah saya excited post kat sini. Orang jarang dapat pencapain kan? Kat skolah dulu nak cecah A pun menetes, apatah lagi A+. Sila gembira bersama saya.

Speaking of being happy... Hehe. Mode gedik dah sampai. On the contrary of the last post, I think I found someone who makes me feel giddy again. Tapi takdelah nervous excited feeling. Belum sampai tahap tu lagi. Because I still can act cool and talk to him. I have this speechless, mouth-locked-shut syndrom with the people I have crush on. Him, not yet. Hehehehe he's someone who have always been there but I didn't give the option to look at twice. At that time he was dating someone. I met him the first time during one of the event my faculty held. He joined a group photo. I didn't know who he was but I remembered he's good looking, with sweet approachable face. That was few months back.

Last week, I joined his class's presentationand I managed to see him in action. Boy was I surprised! He was very composed during presentation. Speaks English well, good diction, it was a pleasurable surprise. Im a sucker for guys who speaks good English. And I thought he was just another pretty face. Oleh itu did a little digging and found out he use to be very well known back in school. A teacher's pet, school's heartthrob, someone with a title, total major lock-down in everyone's good list. Takleh bagi specific details. Mati aku, I dont know who's reading and anything can be a point for them to use against me. Hehehehe.

Anyhow, saya dengan ini berharap kawan-kawan tidak kantoi kan saya lah hendaknya. Sekian terima kasih =)

I heard you are leaving, I didn't like it. Not one bit, not at all.
I know you are leaving, but I didn't expect it to be this soon.
I was never anything to you but you were always something to me.
That's why its hard, that's why something in me snap shut.
And that's why I actually cried.

I want you to go, because its always how I knew you.
Someone who is in motion, never in one position.
But a big part of me don't want you to.
Because it will mean you are nearer.
Eventhough you're in another state, at least you are here.

I can't bring myself to call you,
I can't feel myself making effort for you,
because you're not mine.
But I miss you.

I miss you.

Awak,
Saya harap awak jaga diri kat tempat orang. Lagi-lagi dunia tengah banyak bencana. Awak makin jauh, jadi rindu saya dipanjangkan. Terima kasih selama mana awak di sini. Saya doa untuk keselamatan awak. Dan juga segala yang baik. You're the worst break up I ever had. But its funny though, because we never had anything.

I can't lose something I never had, so tell me..why do I feel like Im losing you? Entahlah kan? Biarlah. Yang pasti, saya doakan awak selamat ke sana, di sana dan paling penting. Selamat Kembali.

I watched '500 days of Summer' the other night with Arie and Timah girls. I love it, and hate it at the same time. Its a harsh reality check. Its annoying to know that those type of girls exist. And I live amongst them. Hey, Im a girl too right?

Those girls are the pretty ones, not hot but not plain Jane either. She's in between. Attractive and approachable. And the best things about Those Girls are they know they can get them boys, they can choose anyone they like and they ALWAYS play the field. In short, those girls are the kind who 'like them, and leave them'.

I hate Those Girls!

1. For being pretty and knowing they are good looking enough for many boys.
2. They have MANY boys to choose from.
3. Those boys are usually kind. Too kind that they don't know they'll end up getting played.
4. Those girls are users.
5. They don't know what they want, therefore they give hopes to many guys.
6. They kept doing it again and again.
7. Despite it all Those Girls are kind and nice. That's why boys don't realise that they actually are being gamed.
8. And that my friends, are the reason I dont want to be the matchmaker!

Okay lah I malas. Tapi Zooey Deschanel memang fit the character sangat. Pretty, cute, alluring, attractive, approacable, deceitful, her face spells false hope. I like her. I just don't like Summer. Kesian kot all those guys. Berkawan dan dating is 2 different meanings. Get it right, stop playing games. You know I tell this because I love you.

15 days marks 1 whole year. And I feel missed. I miss the longing to see that special person, I miss having someone of my own. Especially now that everyone is pairing up. I feel like a pest everytime. When Ya and Ayaq go on dates, I tag along. Im the third wheel. When Ya and Ayaq, Eikha and Reza go out, I tag along, Im the 5th wheel. Im such a pest! Need a wheel of my own.

I do have friends who are single around me, but they have people around them. Some goes out with different guys all the time. Some on occasion, but still!! They're dating. And Im not.

Ishk cepatlah special someone tu sampai. Susah sebab its not a boyfriend that I'm looking for. Its someone to grow old with, to share an inside joke, to have meaningful conversations, to share life with.