When we meet again
I never thought we'll be more than friends
But here we are
Stuck in between

There's a line we have not erased
Because the steps we take made it vague
We're stuck in between
Because we have fallen in

Can't go back and won't move forth
I can feel the walls are closing in
Like quicksand, it swallowed us in
Now we're stuck in between

How do we get out of this
Do we start over
Do we wipe the slate clean
Or lets just be together
You and I
We're stuck in between

Dated 27/1/11


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Kita tak tahu melangkah lagi
Setiap langkah kita adalah penerjunan
Kita relakan diri ditelan pasir jerlus
Kita benarkan diri disangkar terus

Aku tak tahu kamu
Tapi aku tanpa sedar terjerumus lahu
Aku tak pasti lagi aku
Sedang cuba kenali diri yang baru
Atau dalam diam sedang buang dulunya aku

Tak pernah diluah dengan kata
Tapi termeterai tak mampu wujud kita
Namun sempat juga tercipta ruang
Untuk rasa tanpa kita

29/1/11
The letter of the day is P.

For PARTAY!
P for perfect.
Pleased.
Patience.
Perseverence.
Present.
Praise.
P.

Best of all, the letter P is going to be pasted on the screens of cars I will be driving!

Say whatttt?! I passed my driving test! And will be getting my probational driving license next week! Alhamdulillah!

After 5 years from the first class, being pessimistic and pressured, FINALLY..... PASSED!
Sometimes you know its wrong but you need to speak about it to your friends. Just so those feelings you restraint wont channel to that place where it must go but should not.

I am feeling that now. And I cant think of any friend that would just listen. And the most they can do, listen and tell me NO. I dont need them to tell me that. I know that myself. I just want someone to listen so that I wont go after the thing they said no to.

Haha, writing in gray. I can write it with crystal clear image and say its a fiction Im working on. But no, I only write what I know. And this can be shocking.

So, No.
Im telling that now.
I havent been updating kan? Work have been taking a lot of my time. Very demanding. Truthfully, it feels like dating...with work.

But, I would like a person who demands my time and attention. One that can pull my shirt down when Im reaching the top shelf. One that makes my exhaustion gone with a smile.

And definitely one that can send me back home after work. Today I walked home from the office. Hebat tak? Haha.