God, you have given me so much. So so much. And tonight you return my fading trust on friendship and warmth.
Im blessed by your blessings in the form of people you put in my life and the rezeki you shower me with.

Thank you so much for all you have given. As you have blessed me, I humbly request for you to give the same to my friend. She have been tested so much these couple of years. I strongly believe you, the most forgiving, the most merciful knows the best for her.

Please allow her to fine that happiness with her children through you. Please let them be happy with you, by you.

O Allah, she have showed she has the patience to endure your tests. Kindly allow her to receive the reward of the patience. In sha Allah.

I have a friend, a Malay friend. Who somehow always get diss by other Malays due to the way she dresses. I sebenarnya tak faham kenapa beria-ria sangat orang nak benci dia. Come on lah, Judgemental gila by the way she dress. Bukannya melampau pun pakaian dia. Sampai nak drag in tempat asal dia bukan dari KL. So kalau dia bukan orang KL dia tak boleh dress up macam tu?

Sorry lah kalau pemakaian dia tak seMelayu harapan korang. Tapi tak perlu pun tak suka dia sampai tahap macam tu. Korang tak kenal dia. Betul dia tak cukup tutup aurat dia. Tapi bukan tempat kita nak mengutuk. Apa beza kebanyakan kalian yang berhijab, tutup aurat tapi tak jaga batas pergaulan? Dia terdedah, tapi batas pergaulan dia jaga. Langsung tak menyentuh atau disentuh lelaki. Korang tahu ke tu? Boleh nampak ke dari pakaian dia?

Mungkin korang amalkan membenci dengan hati, tapi pernah tak menegah dengan tangan? Menegur dengan lidah? Memaki adalah! Let it be known yang konsep berdakwah bukan membenci, menjatuhkan. Tapi menerima, membantu dan menegur. Pernah buat ke? Lagi sebar cerita buruk-buruk. Kita pun tak elok mana. Dosa pahala bukan kita tentukan. Itu kerja Yang Esa. Masing-masing ada akal, kita jaga diri sendiri dulu.

I terkilan sebab yang mengata tu kawan, subjek yang diperkatakan pun kawan. Yang mengata ni tak terfikir ke aku pun tak bertudung dulu, pun pakai shorts, pun pakai skirts. Kalau nak banding dia dengan aku dulu sama je, Kadang-kadang aku lebih lagi dari pemakaian dia. Habis kalau aku macam tu, pun korang akan bantai sebab aku tak berpakaian seperti Melayu? Ke aku tak kena sebab rupa aku tak Melayu?

I tengah berlagak gila sekarang. For real! I dont care to try to have any contact with friends pun. Berlagak sebab I'm with my family. Berlagak sebab in comfort zone. Berlagak sebab surrounded by familiar faces. Berlagak macam tak perlu kawan-kawan. Berlagak sebab the friends I miss most are here in Malaysia, in KL. Berlagak sebab every weekend is family time. Berlagak habis sampai tak make effort sebab I want people to make effort. Jadi I only go out with people who wants to see me.

 I got to see Milly twice. Not enough, but oh well. Bulan puasa pulak nanti.

 Weekly makan sessions with Emon. More than enough. Fattening because food for the soul is actual food!

 Paden the world traveller. Boo him! But he's back, yay!

And also the recently turned 22 Nana! 

Sleepover, movie, hair remedy, intimate weekend sans birthday celebration. More plans on hold!

In the next weekends I shall look forward to spending time in Sweet Semenyih, going back to Kuantan and Kajang and be amongst the people who love to eat and eat because there's so much love. And pending outings with Lya, Shery & Jaja, Dieyla & Cip, and moreeeeeeeeee night outs with Ya and Syaniz. Untunglah rumah satu deret.

I'm not really a control freak but I am a planner. Most of the time friends will point at me to organise outings sampai I get annoyed. Kadang-kadang je lah. Rest of the time, I'll gladly do it. So that I get things to go my way. Ehem!

Recently, a lot of people around me got married. Mostly girls. (Tak, I tak terasa. Okay....sikit je.) Some of them had hen night or bachelorette party before they got sealed for life to their husband. I guess that's the last time boleh sakan enjoy with girlfriends. Being the over-excited person that I am and because I simply want to do it, I dah start planning my own night! But then I want it to be a sleepover thing or a brunch thing. Or both. Aha!

I have friends from different cliques because I have had bad experience in primary school. I remember being a loner because I don't belong. So when I found people who likes being friends with me, I hold on to them. Remember the saying? Choose the person who loves you more than you love him. I use that in friendships as well. Setakat ni, Im glad with the friends I have. We got our fair share of dramas but we're girls. It comes with the package!

Is there a limitation of how many people we can have for a bachelorette party? I akan mengamalkan concept, the more the merrier. These people must be there! I would really love to have all of them jumbled up together, mix and mingle. They must know they're all equally important to me. (Take note whoever that's going to plan it. I wanna have it, so please plan it when the time comes!)

Family - my sisters, who grow up with me

Ya

Hani

Syaniz

Since school, sweating and screaming

Milly

Nana

Lya

Emon

Jaja

Sherry

Scolded, robbed, shared houses with

Hanna

Kecik

Phia

Sara

Yana

Bip

Shara

Erin

Kiwie

Lily

Eikha

Only acceptance, no judgements

Yonkey

Tangsue

Abuela

Mini

Intan

Muncheekins

Ciara

Cassie

Masz

Ain

For letting me pour my heart out,

Ema

Tressa

Itupun dah lebih 30. There are some others that I did not include in. Because inviting one will cause chain reaction. Which means I will have to invite another, and another, and another. Until all are invited. But I dont think this is their thing. Maybe 2 of them can fit in. Cheh! Aku risau macam planning betul2 je. Nak menyampai hari kejadian pun taktau lah dah berapa ramai yang fall out.

Theme: The morning after (that's why its gonna be a brunch)
Dresscode: Your man's shirt (preferably white collared man's shirt but his jersey or tshirt will be fine as well!)

Seriously, I got the whole list of activities and semua dah. Tapi cam melampau pulak tulis kan. Whatever happens shall remain a secret. So instead, Imma drop some pictures of how you can wear the boyfriend shirt. Because I think girls are sexiest when they're wearing that crisp, white, collared shirt. And there's so many variations! Wear it with nothing, with leggings, with fishnets, miniskirt, over a tshirt, tie it, cut the sleeves out, tuck it in, put on a see through one, wear it over a dress, acessories to accompany it. Options aren't limited!

1. Walau tak pernah punya kamu, tapi aku rindu.
2. So much for pulling back and not giving yourself too much!
3. Tak tahu ke, 1 simple comment on FB status can put a smile on a girl's face for the whole day? Stop giving her false hope.
4. Don't come crawling back to me when you're covered with shit. I told you to stay off the puddle.
5. Sudahlah! I'm annoyed by your sudden presence here and there. Take a hike! I'm giving you what you want.
6. You're rude, fake and I don't like you.
7. We know there's no chemistry in us right? There's nothing to work with. Bland.
8. Please open up yourself to me. Or allow me in. Is it too much to ask?
9. Clearly I don't seem to belong. I want out.
10. Honestly, I think you should protect your heart a lil bit. You never know when it can break.
11. You! Can you just please stop lying to yourself? You're doing a lousy job at lying to us.
12. I'm glad you have a direction in your life now. Patutnya 5 tahun lepas dah ada dah.
13. Kau nak follow his footsteps jugak ke? I don't expect this from you. You're better than that.
14. Please cut the tangled strings you're in first before jumping into another web. You're still binded.
15. You trusted the wrong person. That person ruined you and is now stabbing you. Open your eyes, you'll see the knives.
16. You want it? You feel it? Go for it. I got your back. Or in this case, I got your head?
17. I never thought you'll be able to take care of yourself. But you handled yourself well. I'm glad =)
18. I know you know. Just know that I don't want you to know because it could've hurt you.
19. Fall out? Fall back in! I miss us. I'm still hoping. At least one of you tried.
20. Something's telling me it might be you. Dang! Been denying it for years!

Almost like the number game on FB. Instead of the people providing numbers, I took the liberty of listing things I want to say to some people. Have fun guessing if you're on the list. If you think you are, have fun identifying which one is for you.

I kena tukar preference lah.

Channel my interest to the type of people yang others don't like.

Always, it will be the one everyone has eyes for.

Tak extraordinary langsung I ni. Need to be unconventional.

Tapi yang others don't like tu sah-sah for concrete reasons kan?

Pervert. Lame. Literal stalker. Annoying. Abuser. Dumb.

Lagiiiiiilah not the type for me.

My uncle, Achik K'ry once said "Find someone smarter than you"

I don't see myself as smart. Not Sheldon smart. But I do read a lot. So that can account to be said as acknowledgeable, I guess. I secretly hold on to that because I do believe I need to feel insecure with the other half. He has to be better so that I can't be superior. I should not be the one wearing the pants.

Susah okay to find smart guys but normal at the same time.

No no robots please.

But tall, thin, dark hair, fair skin guys are always welcomed!

Motif sekarang baru nak tulis camni?

Sebab rasa yang ada dah pergi =)

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Okay now isu berhijab. Kawan-kawan I super awesome okay! In chronological order:

Last week, I went out for a sushi lunch with friends. Tengah-tengah makan, one of them pointed out that I was covering my head but wearing a short sleeve shirt. Terus I insecure because I usually will wear a cardigan over my short sleeve shirts, but had rushed and forgotten about it. Thanks! Its a reminder for myself. I love you for being blunt and straight forward about it. =)

Few days back through YM, another friend hesitantly asked if I am still wearing hijab? I said yes. And she asked again, "even in KL?" Of course I do! Turns out she saw the recently uploaded pictures from last year and before Eid. Times when I have not made my transition and assumed I only cover my hair in Penang. Thank you for your concern. InsyaAllah this is for the long haul.

And today, my bestfriend shot me through twitter. "Mana tudung kau?" Fine lah! I changed the display pic to the one sans tudung. Old picture. Memang cari bahana sendiri. Sayang kau!

Hello! my numbered list is back! Today it will all be all things sweet. Not just the taste, but the thought and the sentiments that brought smiles.

1. Are you sweet? Yes I am! For the people I care, I'll express it. For the people I have feelings for, I suppress it.
2. The sweetest candy bar: Cadbury's white chocolate 4wend 4eva. Its sooooo sweet that I had to nibble it little by little. But really really nice too. And the whole memory of that snack is sweet as well. Imran brought it back from South Africa for me. And the name of it is cute as hell. 4wends 4eva!
3. Sweetest dessert: Can't decide. I'm a sweet tooth, but I have yet to try the macaroons that they say is too sweet.
4. Sweetest random moment: Last Wednesday. Mas & I had an impromptu run to Sushi King for Salmon Nishoku.
5. Sweetest school memory: Sharing nasi goreng brought from home with the whole class. That wins hands down!
6. Sweetest diploma memory: My classmates failure for my 20th birthday surprise.
   
   
   
7. Sweetest degree memory: PERKOM's Cahaya Ramadhan. That's how I came to love you people.
   
   
   
8. Sweetest advice: "Jaga hati kamu elok-elok. Jangan bagi lelaki sebarangan"
9. Sweetest act by a stranger: One time back in BBGS, due to miscommunication, no one came to pick me up from school. I was 7 or 8. I waited for Abah at the bus station until after dark and didn't remember being scared. Because the canteen workers were there accompanying me. I don't remember them. But I remember them being there and me not being scared. Thank you, whoever and where ever you are.
10. Sweetest toddler: They don't usually like me, but Damia Qaisara, since her first day at Nuh's Ark have always cling to me. So much that all the other aunties refer me as her mummy.
    
    
    
11. Sweetest, by the father: Him bringing back Edward Scissorhand's DVD from Johor for me. I got teary eyed. Credits to you Tantiey.
12. Sweetest, by the mother: Dulu masa kecik, bila I balik rumah after I went away for some time, I would expect my parents to give me presents. Tak pernah berlaku pun. But once in a while, at the most unexpected times Mama will bring back stuff that I treasure until now. A crystal butterfly, and books with charm bracelets.
13. Sweetest, by the brother: He doesn't have to say anything back. Whenever I talk to him, I know he understands.
14. Sweetest phone call: Back in SA after Timah was robbed and I lost my camera, Z called. He played Edwin McCain's I'll Be on his guitar AND SANG for me. That helped.
15. Sweetest song: Radiohead's Creep. Classic. Its so sweet in a very twisted way.
16. Sweetest gift: My Juna, from Kak Long and Ayah Sham. Terima kasih banyak-banyak.
17. Sweetest treasure: My big ass family.
    
    
    
    
    
18. Sweetest month in my life: June 2010. Too many things to be thankful for.
19. Sweetest trick being played on me: You. Right now. By the universe. Its bittersweet.
20. Sweetest blog: Ini ditulis by request. Sweet like Candy

For a dearest friend of mine:

It the truth is not helping you out, cry.

If crying still doesn't help, then lie.

Eventually you'll believe the lies you tell yourself.

Dan semangat untuk semua:

Kalau kau pernah takut mati, sama

Kalau kau pernah patah hati, aku juga iya
Dan sering kali
Sial datang dan pergi
Tanpa permisi
Kepadamu

Suasana hati

Tak peduli

Kalau kau kejar mimpimu salute!

Kalau kau ingin berhenti
Ingat ntuk mulai lagi
http://www.free-lyrics.org/16329-Letto.html
Tetap semangat
Dan teguhkan hati
Di setiap hari
Sampai nanti
Sampai mati

Kadang memang
Cinta yang terbagi
Karena memang
Seringkali mimpi tak terpenuhi
Seringkali

Tetap melangkah
Dan keraskan hati
Di setiap hari
Sampai nanti sampai mati

- Sampai nanti, sampai mati; Letto

Waktu penat dan sangat stress untuk kita semua. We'll make it. Paling kurang, we have each other. This is the post about strength. About having it, giving it and sharing it. Sebulan lagi. Kita sehabis boleh yea?

I think I dah masuk phase dengar lagu dan relate. Over tak? Current earworm:

• Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know
• Jessica Simpson - With You
• Jason Mraz - You and I
• Sheila on 7 - Pemuja Rahasia
• Letto - Sampai Nanti, Sampai Mati
• Matt Weddle - Hey Ya
• SS501 - Be Nice To Me Please
• A.P.I. - Pelita
• All Maher Zain's songs

Cerita tentang diri sendiri.

• Tercalon. Alhamdulillah. Ini bakal jadi satu alasan untuk hadirkan diri upacara sebulan lagi.
• Konsert Maher Zain, minggu depan. With Abah. I'm all smiles.
• The best bit? Going home. After 5 weeks.
• Seminggu lagi. Tahankan.
• Saya penat! Nak mandi hujan. Atau air sungai, atau air terjun. Apa-apalah. Asalkan air. Elemen saya air.

Sedih bila u check out a cute guy, but he is checking out your male friend next to you.

Sedih bila you're the last one to know and you got to know it from orang jauh.

Sedih bila semua orang tgh makan gula2 dlm kelas pastu bila u mintak, dah habis.

Sedih bila semua orang gelak-gelak but you don't know the inside joke.

Sedih bila attempt nak masak dinner tak menjadi lepas tercelup jari masa goreng popiah.

Sedih bila kawan rapat dah tak rapat and you don't know how it fell apart.

Sedih bila kawab-kawan selalu cari you. but not for the reasons you want them too.

Sedih bila you rasa sangat marah dengan your bestfriends and you let it all out, rupanya dorang tak faham pun you tengah marah. Siap boleh update about themselves pulak.

This one is especially for you. I don't know if you still read me but if you do, I just want you to know Im keeping myself at a gap. For tbe professional boundary. But I miss you, as a friend. And this saddens me most of all.

Yesterday a few of us went to KLIA to send Mamalang, Bahalang, Ateh G, Mak Zah, Makcik, Auntie Mi and Abg Uu to umrah. I am not one who fulfill 5 times a day prayers but the other night when my male cousins told me of their experience, I want to go too. They said it was great. Almost as if its a purification process. When you are there, you forget about the rest of the world. Its just you and your maker.

The nights before their departure, I had night out (3 nights in a row) with cousins at Kuantan and KL Lepak at Kopitiam and hear 1 of them pour his heart out. Jiwa kacau, that has been the theme the past 2 or 3 weeks. We usually just listen to him and help out by giving advice. Yes! Im the love guru again. For an older cousin at that!

One of the outing at Kemaman Kopitiam, Kuantan

Only yesterday I realised, that I'm having Jiwa Kacau too. I can't feel anymore. Too much things have happened. Now I don't know guilt, want and desire. I just couldn't care less. Jiwa kacau...

Maybe I just don't know what I want in life right now. Except to escape. And shoes! Kak Lisha said I have otak kasut right now. Because she said Colonel Sanders (of KFC) and I heard Kedai Sandal. Piss off, Im emo. Because my greyscale Kulkith that I have been waiting for 3months, DIDN'T FIT! So now Im selling it. Didn't have to go far. Ema wants to have it baaaaad! Untung lah you. Im not sure if I want to buy another pair because my feet is not suitable for that kind of shoes.

Bye bye Kulkith baby..sob..sob..

My feet are wide. Too hard to find comfortable shoes. Open toe ones are the safest choice. Maybe I should get these Buddhist monks shoes. Snapped the picture while was on the monorail last week. It looks cute and comfortable. Hehehe.. Back at Kuantan I managed to get 1 of 2 pairs that I wanted. Now in KL, my search for that green and purple ipanema continues!

Katie left for Goldcoast, Queensland on Monday. Along with her family. Bye bye katie! Thank you for having us at your place. And your almost inedible really pedas nasi goreng! I like her house. Its big and open. Like a cube with an open patio in the middle. This year I've been to 3 new houses of friends and loving each one. And I love each of my Omegoddesses too! Cant seem to get together with most of them at once. Too hard! But we definitely can reconnect when we meet. Aih rindu rindu!

Today, Im going rollerblading with siblings, nieces and nephews. That will be 3 nieces, 3 nephews, 3 brothers and 3 sisters. Maybe 3 friends might join too. Why all come in 3? Nurin's friends might join too. Hwaaaa bikin havoc! With only 3 or 4 of us to look after them. We'll see how it goes. Gosh!

By the way please note that the mythology that I'm incapable of getting sunburn have been destroyed. Thanks to 7 hours of fun at Gambang Water Park, my arms are scalding red and my BCG scar felt like its tearing apart. I'm not burnt as in turning black, but I am definitely burned red and darker. For a small water park that charges only RM20 it was whole lot of fun! Slides were AWESOME albeit the tiring stairs we had to climb. And the wave pool was a match for Sunway Lagoon's. Food was decently priced and tasted good too. Worth coming back to. Nasib baik dekat dengan rumah je.

Firstly, Im sorry dear friends for uploading our busuk pictures from school years. Those are the only ones I have. Sorry for the bad quality of pictures. Yer lah, zaman tu kan camera VGA 0.3 pixel je.

Katie was my classmate in Omega for the last 2 years of school. We were close during school. Actually Im quite close to most of my classmates except maybe 2 or 3 girls. And Omega, we were like sisters. All 32 of us. Almost all.

Katie is very soft spoken but feisty at the same time. She's nice and cooks a hell of a nasi goreng. Which we will pass around class eating and fighting for the spoon like nobody's business. Usually the tupperware will be shiny and spotless before the first bell rings. Rakus!

She'll be leaving for Aussie in a few weeks time. I hope a few of us can make it for her kenduri. A little get together before she goes off. Someare offering themselves for a sleepover at her house the night before kenduri. Including myself! Hopefully we manage to make time for each other. Not just for Katie but also for us who can't seem to fit a gathering in our schedule. We NEED to catch up on each other! Mana tau ada yang dah kahwin ke kan? Sigh.

We'll miss you Katie! And your nasi goreng!!! Take care over there. I know some of the Omegoddesses are already there. Make sure you guys have a meet up once in a while. Maybe you guys will have it more than us here. Take care. Remember us each time you cook your oh-so-sedap nasi goreng!

I confess I don't want to take the responsibilities for the class this year because I still feel bitter from the last trip. It took me nearly 3 months to befriend everyone from my class again because i've gone off the feeling of wanting to be a part of them.

I confess I think I can't cope this semester. I'm facing challenges in more ways than one. Socially, financially, management, responsibilities.

I confess I think I've given too much feelings away last year. It split 3 ways to R, A, P. And its so bloody hard to even come close to have a double take at a guy.

I confess I felt my heart was broken by R and A. The former for being a stupid mistake for beginning it. The latter for being the one that I can never have.

I confess I nearly cried just now during doa after Subuh prayers. I felt small and ashamed for asking too much, for begging when I don't give as much as I'm asking.

I confess I'm embarrased I haven't don the hijab when I've decided I want to. Even after declaring I'm comfortable covering myself, when I've had practice for 3 months.

I confess I don't spend much time with adik even when I know I should.

I confess I want to be bad (try weed once, randomly go out/roadtrip with a group Im not familiar with) but I know I can't because its not me. Im too much of the logical thinking girl.

I confess I don't know what's my specialty or talent. And I think that can be my setback.

I confess I get anxiety attack every time I think about pursuing my studies. I just don't know if it can happen.

I confess sometimes I feel used by my male friends. They look for me either for girls or studies, in that order.

I confess I get tired some times. For thinking too much about them, but never them for me. Call me stupid, call me compassionate, I tried to think about myself but somehow I'll revert.

I confess Z made me cry when he came to me asking for advice about his love life with 'the girl I use to have something with but we lost contact and found each other again after 3 years'. He was the first one i cried for.

I confess I tried staying by my principle. Never to cry for a man who's not worth it. But last month i cried twice. Once for A who I thought I will never see again, and the other time was because of Z, who I thought was the one.

I confess I don't feel hatred. Not for R, A or Z. Not even for my best friend who betrayed my trust.

I confess I can't be bothered about the feud between my 2 best friends. All I want is for them to just start over. 15 years of friendship smeared by 15 months of hostility. End it now!

I confess I don't think I can live up to expectations. There's too much from too many people.

I confess my head needs a vacation right now.

I confess I get annoyed by remarks on my body. Awak dah makin berisi, you gemuk, breast you besar, badan you atas besar bawah kecik, kenapa you ada crotch macam lelaki, makin sehat, lose weight..you are getting bigger. Hello!! I like food! I love to eat. I don't mind having this body. I got nothing to complain. Im perfectly happy with it. If you don't, do something about yours. Dont make remarks on mine! So what if I don't look like a 2- y-o like it was in your time? So what if I dont look like you were before you got married? Heads up! I dont lose anything, Im still me.

I confess sometimes I just need to go home to get away from the girls.

I confess I don't really like my house in Sungai Buloh. Hated the dirty water, the location of it in the middle of palm plantation, the lack of friends, the distance of my house to the nearest mamak. Sigh.

I confess every time we go out to eat I feel guilty for eating good food without paying money on anything as my cousins will always settle it.

I confess I don't work well in groups. I lack commitments. And I'm bossy.

I confess I hate it when friends sleepover their boyfriends house. I feel as if I'm carrying a part of their sins.

I confess I want to stop cussing. And never start cursing in Malay because it sucks.

I confess I'm vain. Quantitatively too.

I confess I don't feel inferior by hot looking girls. I just have this urge to be better than them in traits rather than looks. But its stupid, people always go for looks anyways.

Fuh! Terbaek kan? Mcm drama melayu.

So you call your still awaken friends who are willing are forced to listen to you to wail out. Thanks ya, cwoo and ema.

And then you went out for ice-cream and wholesome laughing session. Thanks hakim, chaq and ken.

Later you come home and seek your girlfriends. Thanks sara, sofia and yana.

AND you slept in, skipped 2 morning classes because you know you can't sahur due to morning indigestion. Minum lagi carbonated drinks dah tau you can't stomach anything without having the after effects later on.

So yeah. The best thanks is definitely to Z.

For 6 months I've waited to see you giving that kind of attention, to confess those words. And 1 year later you finally did. Im just so damn glad it finally happen. Eventhough it's not with me, it happened! I finally get to see that side of you with a girl. And I especially love your choice. Perfect. I like seeing you and her, I can't help smiling ear to ear when you both are next to each other.

You guys are like oil and milk, so out of place but some how there's just something that clicked. Maybe its your attraction towards her, maybe its her shyness. I like being on the other side glancing at things that happen between you.

I feel like a mother looking out at her children. Hahahahahahaha loser tapi betul!
This time around, good luck good luck! =)

It was her last week as she is moving out to continue her studies elsewhere. I've only been friends with her since May 2008 when we were staying in Ferum but the bond we had seems like forever. Dia lah yang paling rajin nak melayan mood mengada2 orang. Tolong urut, main-main spa, electrician pun dia, bibik pun dia, kakak pun dia, aih. Dah rindu u dah! Tapi Shara is best linked to the word CAMWHORE!

This last week was extra fun. The whole house went out together 2 nights in a row. We played futsal on Tuesday night which was noisy as hell, had dinner together afterwards and on Wednesday night, our last supper together. One final lepak session.

We miss you already Sha! <33

Setelah 6 bulan akhirnya dapat bermesra dengan Dila and Enor! Ni lah dulu tidur sekatil, mandi bersama, lari dari orang kene rasuk, share makanan, menyumpah orang yang sama. Hehe

We were dormmates, more like bedmates during the 1st semester. Thing is, semua different course. Enor-Physiotheraphy, Dila-Photography and Im in Communcation. Banyak beza. Tapi we connect. Bak kata Dila tiga2 xde benda sama langsung, tapi mata kitorang sama2 coklat! Hehehe. Had fun, eventhough kejap sangat.

Ini cerita Jumaat lepas. Dah masuk angin dah.

Despite Yana's plea to not put this in my blog, im still going to!

Saya kan suka cari pasal. Hehehe

Went to the studio early in the morning but had to wait until after Friday prayers to start shooting. To kill time, we borrowed the tripod, locked the door and hold our own shoot!

Mock shoot kononnya.

After her shoot, while waiting for editor's confirmation if she's okay with the photos..

The photographer offered for both of us take candid shots. Apa lagi, memang sakan la kan!

Afterwards, Kuyeh picked us up. Dan kami ke Times Sq dengan niat nak menonton wayang. Tapi tak pergi pun. Jenjalan sampai penat. Dah penat duduk. Ambik gambar. Gila takde kerja!Disebabkan exhausted, otw ke Putrajaya (sebab Kuyeh nak makan pizza murah) Yana and I tidor mati. Bangun je dah ada pizza. Terus makan. Rasa macam mimpi tengah makan. Blur.

Sebelum balik Shah Alam sempat lagi pergi Puchong ambik kawan Kuyeh yg akan ikut dia pergi jamming the same night. Agaknya betul kot statement Kuyeh yg mengaku dia robot. Gila betul. Driving dari Melaka to Kl to Putrajaya to Puchong to Shah Alam to Ampang in the same night.

Oh ada sesuatu juga yang tak dinyatakan.

Pada hari Isnin, it was my turn to be in the spotlight. Eceehh. Takde lah. I went for a TV advert shooting as an extra. Di McD. I know people will talk about boycotting the Jewish product, tapi mak saya cakap kalau mereka nak bayar..pergi jelah!

Heh! Lagipun i talked to the CS rep of McD. She said the paid only 5% to the franchise name. What the higher people do is up to them. The Malaysian branch only care for their workers and the business here. If ppl boycott McD, which means no buyers and if it so happens they have to let go of employees, sapa nak tanggung orang2 yg tak bergaji ni?

And government tax included in the charges, it means the government pun tak support boycott la kan?

Though we are not as close as we used to, my thoughts are always with the both of you.
We all got closer by accident. W, im not sure how we started but eversince the first message during the hols..we got no barriers. I trusted you, and you let me hold to your secrets too. Then you G. You seek me for help and that draw us closer. Somehow we 3 linked. You are already close to W, and our triangle is perfected.

The 2 guys i trust the most. I never mind going out with the 2 of you at any given time to any given place. Even if only just me and any one of you at certain time, I still didnt mind. Others may say things because supposedly a guy and a girl can't only be platonic. But hey, we worked it out didnt we? It was fine between us. We know our place, we know our barriers.

Its funny that we always know how the other person on the end of the line is feeling just by hearing Hello. Or if they are hiding something. And we understand each other. I know your life story, your biggest meltdown and you know mine. We shared a lot.
Thanks for all this while.
Thanks for Pink Panther at SS2.
Thanks for Wendy's at Sunway.
Thanks for a great laugh at Pyramid.
Thanks for the countless phone calls and messages.
Thanks for wasted petrol.
Thanks for the late night mamak session.

And Mantera Beradu in the car,
the teasing, the cursing, the laughters,
the pranks, the advice, the honesty,
the bickering, the trash talking, the sloppy wet tears,
the food on your plate, the effort you make, most of all
Thanks for your time.

Hello hello!!!! =)
Today, im writing as Hani, a 19 year old!
Yay!! Another birthday yang tak di-celebrate.
I went back home sebab dah homesick.
So my birthday was at home with family!

I spent the morning with Liea kat hospital sbb she just had her knee operated.
And the whole day going here and there with Abah. Every stop, i waste my energy trying to clear my stomach. Sumpah penat! Haritu pulak nak kena cirit-birit kan? By 4 dah dead exhausted, and on our way to Shah Alam Sect 26 to check on Adik's wheelchair, i slept the whole way. Sampai Sg.Buloh baru conscious balik. Tapi skejap je. It was raining heavily, memang syiok tidoq!

First, congratulations to Kak Irene for her baby Iskandar. Way past overdue dah wish ni.
Second, Arwen or rather Arwen's mum; gedik gila okay! Kenduri cukur jambul ada gift box with photo on top. Menyampah! Birthday parties nanti sure lagi mengada. Aunty Fa jeles nih!
And finally, thank you soooooooooooooo much!!! For birthday wishes!

Ya, Eikha, Farah/Stella, first of the list.
Millylove, sebab she said she's first so okaylah!
Liea, Ju, Nana, Sara, Phia, Ashley, Aien, thanks sayangs!!
Paden, Payan, Rauf, Ash, rindu korang lah!
Ryhan, Ayed, Dila, Fatin! Unexpected.
Yana and Kuyeh, korang the best song! Hahaha
Family members jutaan thank you! <3

And then others through facebook, baru bukak harini. Thank you, really appreciate it.
Senyum puas!

*Malam ni hopefully takde perang telur, jenuh nak cuci nanti. But knowing Shara..suka buat dajal. Kene buat plan baru nih supaya backfire!

Khas buat seorang yang aku pernah anggap kawan rapat.

Thanks for showing the value of YOUR friendship.

Which is nothing!

Kalau dari dulu aku tau kau opportunist, tak perlu aku bazir masa tolong kau.

Wey, bila aku buat kawan, aku nk semua perkara tentang kawan aku jadi elok.

Termasuk kau dan kesah cinta kau yg sebenarnya aku rasa hopeless.

Aku sanggup tahankan, dengar, tolong kau, sebab aku fikirkan kau tu kawan aku!

Ko susah, aku ada. Bila time aku susah ada nampak kau?

Lagi susah adalah!

Kau terasa dengan benda2 aku cakap? Tapi kau ada fikir tak benda tu betul ke tak?

Lantak kau lah. Memang susah nak terima cakap orang. 5 orang cakap benda sama dengan 87 cara berbeza pun belum tentu kau accept. Itu hal kau.

Kau tau tak aku terasa bodoh gila sebabkan friendship yg aku valuekan sgt tu..kau tak bercakap dgn aku, aku pergi cari. Aku mintak maaf walaupun aku tak tau salah aku apa. Sekarang aku dah tak pedulikan kau. Lantaklah dengan life kau.

Kau belajar lah mengenal budi sikit. Aku tak pernah berkira dengan kawan2. Tapi kau sampai curik kerja aku just so that kau senang, boleh tunjuk konon kau berusaha utk dapat markah, gred elok. Bangang ke apa kalau usaha kau tu terang2 kerja tangan orang lain? Depan mata kantoi. Aku buta bila dengan kawan2. Tapi aku tak tolol lagi.

Pandai kau lari dari aku kan sekarang? Apasal? Tak berani nak confront aku sebab kau tak faham message panjang aku? Belajar lah wey, itu guna kau kat tempat tu. Bukan nya curik kerja orang lain.