If I accidentally meet Taecyen without bodyguards, I will go up to him (with weak knees) and nicely tell him.

"HI Taecyeon, I'm Hani from Malaysia. Sorry to bother you but can we please have some pictures together? Please bear with me. One picture will not be enough. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity."

And because my mukadimah is too long, he'll say yes. I'm gonna make sure i have more than enough couple shots with him. And then leave.

Please excuse me, just need to get that out of the system.

Harini I buka playlist lama and I found this song playing.
Googled the lyrics.

Damn! I was in that phase dulu kan.
I was THAT emo and cuckoo. At least it was for a real person that I was almost involved.
And subconsciously, Taecyeon.

Tamia's Almost 
Can you tell me How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

Hehe! Disebabkan ibuzz korea come up with an awesome interactive site for 'experience' in Korea for 3 days with 2PM and Miss A, maka sampai sesudah subuh baru tidur semalam.

Paling best website ni sebab the first day after arriving, hang out with Taecyeon. Naik bike. Dia bawak jalan-jalan, makan and lepak with his friends - Junsu, Junho, and Fei who misses me! Then Chansung dressed me up for a Nanta concert that Taecyeon was performing! Can be more awesome tak? YES IT CAN!

Second day was spent free and easy with Suzy and Jia at the traditional Hanok house. And more Korean food!

Third day, personal tour with goodwill tour guide - Wooyoung! Or Min. Your choice.

Superfun ahhhh they created interactive virtual tour of Korea. With 2PM pulak tu!!!!! And there's this photo booth section that we can paste our face on the person's body. Konon-konon we are taking pictures with them lah. See that one? That's mine with my ultra lover. Heh!

Saranghae oppa!
Annyeong!

Is everyday. Even the hardest of days. Because it made the next day or the day before seems better in comparison. I actually don't remember much of 2011. It is as if it zoomed in and out like The Flash. Everything that happened have been great.

4 cousins and an uncle got married this year. Few friends had babies. One of my best friend got hitched. Then there's also graduations and great results for friends, cousins, nieces and nephews who took big exams.

I've been happy. Friends doubled no, tripled. Some of the old ones left, some stayed on and became almost family. All of them became the reason I can't wait to be back in KL. They're my home. And because I still havent found the one Ill miss more than the people in KL. But really, u cant miss anyone or anywhere more than home.

2011. The year I spent least time in Semenyih. That gotta change next year. It must. What else must change? Me. For the better. Ive been struggling to make myself a better Muslim. I have to do that in order to become a better person. I see that slowly changing in me. Because this year, Ive been told off for being too positive and too forgiving. Am I not a realist anymore but now an optimist? I cant tell it myself.

This year, my thank you list extended. I have a really big family, so its quite tough to list down everyone. Im just grateful to be born in this family thats so full of love and care for each other.

As for my friends, thank you for being reliable, my BFFs: Milly, Nana, Liea, Emon, Jaja, Ema.

To the gangs I occasionally join, thank you for having me Usuals, BBPs, Timah, KIKI, AUSM, ze boys.

Thank you for the car rides and night outs Enor, Arip, Shanaz, Shah, Nabil, and the rest.

Penang people! Thank you for fun times and the friendship and all the help you are willing to give Ain, Kimi, Lii Jing, Syafiq, Reza, Fly, Ciara, Muncheekins, Ben, YuHeng, Eugene, Cassie, (macamlah korang baca).

And finally, thank you for your existence! Having you as my main interest and escapism have helped me go through a lot. Kamsahamnida Running Man! Taecyeon, Chansung, Wooyoung, Nickhun, Junsu, Junho. Saranghae 2PM!

(You dont expect that in my Thank You list dont you? How can I not thank them?!)

2011, that you for all the great times! I almost cant remember any bad moments. I really must have turned into an optimist. Ish ishh...

Have a great new year everyone! See you tomorrow 2012!

I know this is sad.
Almost too sad to be written or read.
But I think I'm sucked in this 2PM fandom a bit too much already.
So I need this to be written for myself.
To snap back to reality.

How can I miss them boys so much not even 24 hours after attending their concert?
Oh yeah, I lost my voice about a week because of their Hands Up concert. No kidding.

But really. Taecyeon is just too damn real!
I always think he looks like someone I know.
He speaks like someone I've spoken to.
He acts like someone I'm so used to spend time with.
He's real, but I've only watched him on screen (and only one time live).

Why is he so real to me?
The other 5 doesn't seem to have the same effect.
Just him.

WHY?

Of course it had to be

2PM!

And this is 2PM

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday wednesday stay in bed
Or thursday watch the walls instead
It's friday i'm in love
Saturday wait
And sunday always comes too late
But friday never hesitate...