Need I remind myself again NEVER to plan anything because it will NOT happen as planned? Apparently Tangsue have the same problem too. The best thing is, this Kek Lok Si trip was planned by us. Of course failure is stamped all over it.

Semangat plan since 2 weeks back. And when the day comes...pfffttt! We agreed to bertolak at 1. But Yonkey and I bertolak at 2, and their car bertolak after 2 due to the most lembab car rental service. Nak kata janji Melayu, tak boleh. Sebab bukan berjanji dengan Melayu. Except the car guy. I bet he's Malay. But hey, WE MADE IT!

See this guy with nostril flaring? He's our tour guide. Bery nais Eugene! He really knows his way around Kek Lok Si. And he's also my photographer tak bertauliah. Heh!

Smashing time with my smashing girls. Tunggu... I'll get myself an umbrella too! Obviously it will be as cute as I am. I want one with a panda head. Too much to ask? Takpelah. Orang comel, pakai apa pun comel. Ehe!

Despite our delay because of the heavy rain, I think we had fun. Funny conversation over bowls of laksa in the rain. One that include Intan's favourite childhood cartoon, Kacang. Eugene's Keluang Man and Masked Rider, April's Little Lulu, my Usop Sontorian, Tangsue's Anak-anak Sidek and who was it that said Siti Sifar? Siti Sifir okay!

The rain was actually instant karma for Tangsue and Grobuela for cussing too much while waiting for the car guy. All in all, it was a fun day. The weather was good too. Not hot, and not exactly raining. It only drizzled by the time we were leaving.

Thanks for a great time sayangs! Appreciate it! Next sem Penang War Museum! Boring places can't be boring once we set our foot there. Seriously, I think we woke up the gods while we were there. Great way to end the semester. Thank you. Sayang MAX!

The night of convocation! Post grad party themed Red.Black.White. Sadly tak ramai datang. Yang mana ada ni pun dah memadai. We expected 50 people to come, tapinya only half of that je ada kot. Janji korang dah bayar. Payment tu halalkan ye?

Jangan camni for 5 years reunion tau? Menetes kami yang organise tu nanti. I had fun anyways. Seronok jumpa kawan-kawan lama. Tak rapat pun, cuma kenal. Tapi mesra. So that's fun enough for me. Yang penting! Witwicky ada. Didn't expect him to be there. Kalau tahu, I datang lagi awal. Ehehehehehe.

After the party, the bunch of us that came went to Subang. Sambung lepak with Ajis, Arie, Phia, Adly and Ramzi. Sempat meet up Andre and Ken. Sekejap je, because we left to go to Summit. Agenda: Karaoke!

They surprised me with a cake while I was belting out Allure's All Cried Out. Gone satu lagu! Thanks Sayangs! I appreciate it. But I still want a picnic party please! =P

Best weekend of November! Loved everything and everyone that made up the most rocking weekend. 21, good year!

This is my 21 year old self, attending my Diploma convocation on the 21st of November 2010.

Terkilan tak ambik gambar dengan Abah. Mama dengan Adik tak datang. Jadi peluang tu memang dengan Abah sorang.

Tak tahu boleh duduk tak ikut turutan nama. Kalau tahu, memang nak duduk dengan geng sendiri. Takpelah, kurang-kurang dapat berbaik dengan gadis paling tak ngam di UNISEL dulu.

I lagi happy dan bangga tengok kawan-kawan naik stage ambik sijil daripada I yang berjalan atas tu. We made it guys!!!

Diploma Comm & Media students duduk bahagian paling depan. Tiap kali kamera fokus pada muka, macam-macam gaya keluar. Konvokesyen dah macam perhimpunan biasa yang tak formal. Penangan kitorang.

Bukan tu je. Protokol memang buat sendiri lah. Gelak ketawa, tidur bersungguh-sungguh (I dan most of the boys), tepuk tangan, comment MC. Paling best...bersemangat menyanyi lagu UNISEL. Rupanya ada lagu okay!!! Kami bangga buat seketika.

Keluar dewan, I jadi Mak Tiri slash speaker rakyat semula. Nak kumpulkan semua untuk shoot gambar ramai2. Tapi tak kesampaian. Cuma sempat jadi koir nyanyikan Birthday song untuk C'Put the birthday boy.

Terik mentari jangan cerita lah! Merenik peluh. Basah baju. Hilang ayu.

Dan bagi seorang aku yang asalnya tak mahu berada di situ, aku mengaku sepatutnya aku mahu. Walaupun highlight Diploma aku adalah pada 6 May 2010. Hari terakhir semuanya ada berkumpul dalam satu tempat yang sama dan acknowledge each other, memaafkan segala.

We'll see each other again. Our reunion, in 5 years time. InsyaAllah. I'll make it happen walaupun almost impossible. Harapnya korang tak culas, malas, dan cheapskate lagi dah selepas 5 tahun.

All the best guys!

By Malaysian law, I now have the right to vote!

I turned 21 and I celebrated it with the faces I love.

Sekaligus with Mummy Lin and Abah Nal's 22nd anniversary.

Yang last tu gambar band kitorang. Hehehe

There's too many things to be thankful for. I can't put it into words just yet.

I ada ni for my birthday, korang ada? Thanks Diamond!!!

So sweet of her. And I just got to know her tau!!! I really appreciate this Intan.

Mucho lovesssss!

I'm in the bus ditemani Abang Bruno, expected to arrive at 7pm. I've slept for 2 hours straight. would continue on had the chair I am sitting in recline all the way. Malangnya ni seat di hujung bas. Jadi tak boleh recline lebih-lebih macam orang lain. Kalau boleh recline pun Ill still be bored.

I miss the bus ride with Yonkey. That was really fun! 5 hours passed as if its only an hour. Macam reunion sekolah. Eh memang reunion kawan sekolah pun. Gila banyak gossip! Sigh. Every bus ride after that one was LAME. I really need a good company for the next bus ride. Dah 3 kali balik sorang. Bosannnn!

Balik KL sebab macam-macam sebab. I tanak post dulu sebab kalau plan mesti tak menjadi. So nak tengok which plan happens and which one doesnt. Yang penting, next week nak pergi Hard Rock lagi! Ada showcase lagi! Malaysian legends perform. Heh heh heh!

Okay wireless macam ada takde. I tengah takde benda nak cerita pun sebenarnya. Im in a happy phase. Things have turned out good again. Better actually. Takde dilemma, takde drama. Orang semua tengah busy exam. Takde time nak make fuss on me. Hehehehehee.

Pasni kalau emo rempit type style senang je, Aku pilih KLCC doh!

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People:
10. I'm glad I met you.
9. I am emotionally dependent on you.
8. How come we don't talk much?
7. Here's your knife, I just pulled it out of my back.
6. Why do you still seek me, and yet you say nothing to me?
5. Why don't you just stab me in the front too!
4. Terima kasih memberi ruang menumpang kasih.
3. Im 5 years too late, but sometimes I wonder if it can actually happen between us.
2. Boleh make sure saya dapat A tak untuk subject ni?
1. I trusted you, I backed you up. And that's what I got from you. Thanks.

Nine things about myself:
9. I don't want to be thin. I have my reasons.
8. I am somehow seen as a threat. I don't get why.
7. I still bite my nails. Bad habit, hard to lose.
6. I am easily lured with promises of travelling or dining. Super easy. Maybe I shouldn't write this. Oh well.
5. My love for words have made it hard for me to not fall for sweet talkers.
4. I've always wanted to do something radical to my hair. Tak buat jugak lagi. Cornrows, undercut, you just wait!

3. I love food, I eat a lot, I don't have regrets about eating too much.
2. I've lost my instinctive ability to point out people-I-should-not-be-linked-to ever since I come to USM. Too many of them wearing a mask or a full costume.
1. I am a PRO at procrastination.


Eight ways to win my heart in relationships.

8. Write to me. Write from the heart. With ink and on paper please.

7. Make me show you my manja side. Bukan semua orang pernah lihat.

6. Rajinkan diri bawak I pergi makan.

5. Make me laugh, every time.

4. Carry a good, meaningful conversation with me. Share yourself.

3. Remember the little things, because I will definitely remember yours. Appreciate.

2. Don't touch me with your body parts but make sure you touch my heart.

1. Love me because you love Him.


Seven things that cross my mind a lot.
7. Travelling
6. Serendipity, boleh tak obses kat blog sendiri?
5. Studies, bila nak habis?

4. Kahwin. Ye yeee muda lagi, your time will come, enjoy your single hood. OKAY!
3. Food. I like to eat kot!
2. Friends. Muka2 cantik, awesome dan gorgeous yang kadang kala fake.
1. Home. Lagi banyak muka cantik, awesome dan gorgeous. Langsung takde fake.


Six things I do before I fall asleep
6. Most prolly tengah online sambil meniarap pastu tidur sebab sakit belakang.
5. Cuci muka pakai face wipe pada hari malas. Hari rajin, scrub muka.
4. Tolak semua barang ke hujung katil.
3. Set alarm on both phones. Tak guna pun. Esok pagi snooze 4 kali.
2. Shut down Juna taruk kat atas lantai.
1. Susun atur pillows and comforter.


Five people who mean a lot.

(I have to do it by group sebab I can't pick just 5)
5. My family (ABCB, Kajang Clan, Mondoques) Ya ada kat list ni.
4. My Girlfriends (Millie, Nana, Liea, Emon, E) Kat list ni jugak.
3. Timah. Juga di list ni.

2. Nuh's Ark especially the Marcellanas, Lagunillas and De la Cruzs.

1. Penang positivy injections (Yonkey, Cassie, Mas, the girls with cute nicknames and Ali's girls)

Four things you’re wearing right now.

4. Studded faded blue skinny
3. Black top
2. Turquoise cardigan
1. Purple undies

Three songs that you listen to often.

Ni the most recent list:

3. Radiohead's Creep

2. Bruno Mars - Grenade
1. Hanyut by Faizal Tahir

Two things you want to do before you die.
2. Kahwin. Nak anak banyak.
1. Lunaskan hutang.

One confession.
1. Apa confess2 ni. Taknaklah. Everything I wrote here is a confession on its own.

Footnote: Actually there is one thing that I can think about confessing. But I am an open book already. And I tak reti jadi segan. Kalau I tulis, it will be bloody obvious and I am so not good at being the shy shy cat. I'm not a cat. What am I rambling? 2 words: guilty pleasure. If you're good, you'll find out. Heh heh heh! Last2 tulis jugak, motif?

I kena tukar preference lah.

Channel my interest to the type of people yang others don't like.

Always, it will be the one everyone has eyes for.

Tak extraordinary langsung I ni. Need to be unconventional.

Tapi yang others don't like tu sah-sah for concrete reasons kan?

Pervert. Lame. Literal stalker. Annoying. Abuser. Dumb.

Lagiiiiiilah not the type for me.

My uncle, Achik K'ry once said "Find someone smarter than you"

I don't see myself as smart. Not Sheldon smart. But I do read a lot. So that can account to be said as acknowledgeable, I guess. I secretly hold on to that because I do believe I need to feel insecure with the other half. He has to be better so that I can't be superior. I should not be the one wearing the pants.

Susah okay to find smart guys but normal at the same time.

No no robots please.

But tall, thin, dark hair, fair skin guys are always welcomed!

Motif sekarang baru nak tulis camni?

Sebab rasa yang ada dah pergi =)

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Okay now isu berhijab. Kawan-kawan I super awesome okay! In chronological order:

Last week, I went out for a sushi lunch with friends. Tengah-tengah makan, one of them pointed out that I was covering my head but wearing a short sleeve shirt. Terus I insecure because I usually will wear a cardigan over my short sleeve shirts, but had rushed and forgotten about it. Thanks! Its a reminder for myself. I love you for being blunt and straight forward about it. =)

Few days back through YM, another friend hesitantly asked if I am still wearing hijab? I said yes. And she asked again, "even in KL?" Of course I do! Turns out she saw the recently uploaded pictures from last year and before Eid. Times when I have not made my transition and assumed I only cover my hair in Penang. Thank you for your concern. InsyaAllah this is for the long haul.

And today, my bestfriend shot me through twitter. "Mana tudung kau?" Fine lah! I changed the display pic to the one sans tudung. Old picture. Memang cari bahana sendiri. Sayang kau!

Okay first things first. Whatever! Tak suka jangan baca. Memang agak tak senonoh post kali ni.

So yesterday, I lepak-ed at my friends room and she randomly asked, "Hani cuba senyum, nak tengok pipi. I did and told her that I have chubby cheeks. And she replied, "tu lah sebab tu dada kau tinggi." Motif???

Menurut my friend itu, female face features are actually hints for the female private areas. That's why female wear purdah. Not only to block their nostril from the dust and sand it seems.

So yeah,

Cheeks - keanjalan dan kemantapan boobs

Eyebrows - errr the pubic hair

Size of mouth - size of vulva

There's something about the nose too, but she can't remember. Betul atau tak? Wallahualam!

In the mean time, feed your curiosity! Here's my favourite girls.

There's something I've been keeping to myself. Kerana bukan semua orang boleh terima.

And this, to me is too personal. This is the most private I've been.

Not a word here. Just random thoughts on twitter.

I don't know how it came to be.

All I know is, now I'm empty.

And I only have myself to heal me.

Forlorn. Anguish. Despair. Abandonment. Nausea.

ABSURD!

Eh keluar hibernasi lah sekejap. This can't wait.

I cadangkan ye... Kalau tak suka I, jangan kawan I.

Takpe I tak kesah pun. I memang jenis friendly, so kalau kita TERkawan dan you tak minat nak berkawan dengan I, buat-buat tak kenal sudah.

Tak perlu cerita belakang. Atau buat cerita pasal I. You cerita kat kawan-kawan jugak.

Eh malaslah! I malas nak dengar apa orang cakap pasal I. Nanti I pulak yang berfikir buruk.

Pastu I pulak yang bawak mulut, jadi sama macam you. Kan?

Camnilah, delete je I dari Facebook. Kalau terjumpa buat-buat tak nampak.

Apahal entah nak jealous kat I?

Typical Melayu. (I Melayu jugak okay? I tak suka stereotype ni, tapi wth?)

Esok kalau I regret writing this, I'll just delete it. But today, I really need to let it out.

God! Tak fahamlah!

Too much has happened and I just dont feel like writing it out.

Yang dekat dan rapat, tahulah.

I've decided to keep this on hiatus.

Lagi pun exam kan? Konon-konon boleh lah.

I found a date to reblog. Tu je nak bagitau.

17 days to go.

Till then.