I nak cerita benda lain actually. Tapi dah baca Kak Rhona's Pos Laju incident, so I wanted to share mine too.

About 2 weeks back I ordered something online. And since I am in Penang, I decided to have it posted at Kak Long's house in Sering Ukay. Lagipun I am coming back that weekend it is suppose to arrive.

The person I ordered things from sent it on the 20th. And I came back on the 23rd. Tapi package takde, sorry note pun takde. Apa cerita? Macam mane nak pergi pick up kalau takde note?

Bila check online through tracking code it stated that my package is at Pos Laju Cheras. When called they said barang2 memang dihantar ke situ to be picked up. Habistu apakejadah bagi alamat rumah as postal address? Dah satu kerja pulak nak pergi sana to pick it up.

Seriously, I tak faham. Ni nak call suruh dorang hantar my package to Penang. Tunggu lah apa alasan dorang nak bagi. Mintak extra charges tu dah pasti.

Hi!!!!!!!! Shoutout to Ana and Yan, I know you are always here.

Okay, since the last 2 to 3 weeks they've been too many things that happen. I have to start with the subjects I'm taking. Strike out everything you've read before. I had major changes up till 19th, the last day they allow us to add/drop subjects for free. I am now taking:

University courses: TITAS, English, Critical Thinking;

Major courses: Communication Technology, Advertising, Campaign Communication;

Minor courses: Philosophy

At first I wanted to minor in Sociology and Anthropology but too many people went for that class and I dont feel special. I have this egoistic need to stand out, therefore I opted for Philosophy. When I first read the courses I will have to take under Philosophy minor I thought to myself, "I can do this!" But everyone were quiet negative about it. They all dropped the course after one class and told me it is a hard subject. I admit, I took it to prove them wrong and to find out myself if it is really that hard. After one class,

I FREAKIN LOVE PHILOSOPHY!

In Buddhism, one goes through liberation until they reach Nirvana or the perfect peace of the state of mind. Enlightenment. That is what Philosophy is to me. After each lesson, I swear, I feel enlightened. Its like a burden was lifted of my shoulders. Philosophy is my de-stressing method. I get to learn, to discover, to share my views, I love it. My classmate, Lii Jing and I, we both feel the same way. We feel happy after every class we attend. I think if we are able to pass with an A for Philosophy, then we have achieved Nirvana. Or we might lose our head in the process.

Next, my PIMPIN Siswa Camp at Cahaya Alam Kelimat, Sungai Siput Perak. My group consist of 116 'kekuatan' from School of Comm, Pharmacy, Math, Social Science and Mechanical Engineering. We broke the record for the most people to passed out during first kawad and pengucapan. 26 of them! Terbaek! There was this 1 guy who squat all of the sudden during kawad sedia. And then he quickly stand up straight. The faci was concern, so they asked him if he was fine? His answer made us stifle our laughter. "Saya tak nampak apa-apa! Saya hanya nampak bayang!"

Okay jahat. Tapi kelakar. Because other people fainted, passed out, wanted to puke. He was the only one who had the temporary blindness as his symptom.

The camp sucked. Sungai teh susu. But the activities were awesome! Survival cooking challenge was the hardest. We had to slaughter a chicken for our lunch, cook rice and a vege dish, on a bonfire. Damn that was hard! I literally cried when fanning the fire so that it will not die down. And I cried again that evening during group discussion. We were given a picture of a man breast feeding a baby using the a bra install with a feeding bottle and nipple.

We were suppose to give our thoughts based on the picture and set a theme for it. Later that night we are to perform according to the chosen theme. Seriously, for smart people...they are pretty stupid. Its so depressing. I was so pissed that I cant get them to interact or share ideas that I burst into tears. Emotional much? It wasn't a big drama lah. I went quietly to a corner, covered myself with a towel and cried during presentations from other groups. Heh!

Last week was the attract-all-the-students-you-can-get-week. Everyday at the library foyer the student organisations opened booth to get new students to sign up. Due to boredom and the super-ego (naik tahap dah ni) need to stand out and get noticed, I am now member of 5 clubs. As a student under School of Communication, I call it SoComm, I am automatically a member of PERKOM. I volunteered myself for Buddies. And have joined Sociology and Anthropology Club, AISEC and also the Debate Club. Tamak tak? Whatevs! I'm bored and I want to get to know people. take all the chances I can get.

Last weekend I went back to KL via Firefly on Thursday night and spent whole day Friday at Shah Alam. Namely UNISEL. Went there to get my final semester's result, apply for my academic transcript and was robbed blind in between. I know I have to pay RM250 for convocation fee. But they told me that we (the whole of FCM students) have to pay RM150 for our Effective Speaking subject which they charged wrongly. Who's fault is it now? And another RM45 for credit exemption of my BM subject. Therefore, instead of RM250 I had to pay Rm445! I nearly didn't get to pick up my passport. That was another RM300. Seriously, I don't know how I managed to pay all that within a day.

And now, I am back in CG. Closer to him (eh terkeluar pulak!). Eating the lauk I'm starting to get bored with from the downstairs cafe. Walking everyday to class. Sleeping every free time I can find. Wanting to go to Queensbay Mall but still remain stuck inside USM. Nightly discussions at Fajar Harapan which I have to walk to. Him accompanying me to Fajar so that I don't have to walk alone (eh terkeluar lagi?). Tutorial classes starting this week which consume more of my free time. 1 class with him because he's a third year and then balik CG sama-sama (haaa!). Credit transfer business still undone. 2 presentations due next week. Reading materials tak habis baca jugak lagi. Pergi tengok teater monolog last night dengan CG, CM and him. And so many interaction dates and events to look forward to!

No wonder lah tak balik sampai September.

By the way, semua kejadian adalah benar. Kecuali all those phrases about 'him' in the last paragraph. He is not in existence yet. Cepat lah exist wey! Mama dah pesan suruh cari boyfriend dah ni!

Amek! Bahasa pasar langsung.

1. Hari-hari jalan kaki dari Cahaya Gemilang ke PP Komunikasi, Dewan Kuliah, DTSP, Pusat Mahasiswa, dan berbagai tempat lagi.
2. Hari-hari kena berjalan sini sana untuk selesaikan hal credit transfer. Penat tau tak!
3. Selain tu, ada kelas di bangunan-bangunan yang berlainan.
4. I tak tahu naik bas. Sebab CG dekat (lah sangat) dengan kebanyakan places I have to go to, jadi I jalan kaki.
5. I tak adapt to the routine lagi.
6. I punya time makan huru-hara. Kadang-kadang tak makan pun. Most of the time, makan tu apa?
7. Last weekend 3days 2nights camp kat Sungai Siput, Perak. Dah kusam dah muka. Tempat tak best, aktivit best!
8. Tak dapat tidur secukupnya lagi sejak camp sebab Isnin first class pukul 8 pagi.
9. Kelam-kabut cari group untuk subjek year 2. I kan baru masuk. Tak kenal seniors.
10. Dapat group, malam kena pergi Fajar Harapan (dari Unisel ke Pak Li) berjalan kaki lagi sebab tak reti naik bas untuk discussion.
11. Tiap-tiap hari kelas I minimum 3. Maksimum 4. Isnin sehingga Khamis.
12. USM sentiasa ada event. Tiap-tiap hari foyer dewan and library mesti ada booth.
13. Its exhausting to be surrounded by smart people who are stupid.
14. Im like a ticking bomb. There's ME who wants to burst out. To be ME in the new place tapi I kena test the water dulu. Tengok what level of Me these androids can get used to. I kan dah kena label mengada.

Thank God its Thursday! Balik KL yeay yeay! Tak sabarnyaaaaa! Rindu semua orang. Rindu makan!

I found this on Give Me Hope - a collection of inspirational stories. Only that I didn't get this at all. Why would a boy put penis at random spot?

"Today, I saw a little kid putting pennies in random spots on the hallway floor of the school I work at. I asked him why he was doing that, and he said he was putting the pennies heads up so that other kids would find them and have good luck today. Kids like him Give Me Hope."

And then I realise, ooohhhhhh pennies! The coins! FML

When deep injury is done to us, we never recover until we forgive, forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future -Mary Karen Read, victim of Virginia Tech shooting; as written in her diary.

Footnote: I nangis macam tengok full feature Hindustani movie.

Sebelum I masuk melodramatic mode malam ni sebab aktiviti malam adalah bersendiri dan ditemani kesunyian, ecewah! I want to introduce you people to Cassie and Mas. The only 2 people I can instantly get along with. Because both of them speak my language, and are in the same wavelenght as I am. Plus, all 3 of us love to laugh. Benda kecik pun jadi lawak takleh cover.

Cassandra Gail Pasqual is not a Malay girl. She's of Serani and Chinese parentage. The first time I talked to her I asked her if she is Chinese or Malay, and she said..Eurasian. Perasan lebih kan kau? She's from Seberang Prai, Pulau Pinang and is taking the same course as I am.

I approached her after the third day Im in USM because of her pleasant face and she is always smiling. She also look a lot like Ochie, my Indonesian friend. We started got close to each other one night during one of the boring taklimat. I think it was the integrity forum in which 2 professors on stage, image projected on the LCD, went crazy cleaning their ears like nobody's business. Of course Cassie and I started laughing and couldn't stop ourselves. She was sitting in front of me and we entertained ourselves by texting to each other. That is how we came to be! May I add that Cassie have the funniest mum ever! She cracks joke all the time.

Cik Masz, nama komersialnya. Originally from Ipoh and have been studying in Kuantan for 3 years for her diploma before coming to USM. I never noticed her during orientation. Jujur ye Mas. But this one night we sat together during CG activity and had her laughing with me throughout the activity. And then had her at the same table for CG's dinner. Hah! That night, the guy who read the doa was the type yang pitching lari. Apa lagi, memang tahan gelak lah Mas and I. Since then, I know she's someone I can look for to have a good laugh, and pick rambutan with. Hihi.

And then there were 3.

Combination of Cassie, Mas and I is so not good. We are the first to laugh, the loudest, the hardest and we can't be stopped. I senang berkawan dengan korang. Thank you for being here =)

Kurang sikit homesick aku.

For the other news, I've managed to transfer my credit hours of some subjects I've taken in UNISEL and may now skip to second year! But for this first semester, I am going to take mostly the wajib (compulsory/forced) university subjects and elective papers.

Up till today, my papers are:

Bahasa Inggeris Akademik LSP 300 - for MUET Band 4 students

Pengantar Antropologi dan Sosiologi - Introduction to Anthropology and Sociology

Pengantar Bahasa Inggeris - Introduction to English Language (to be change to Pengantar Falsafah/Introduction to Philosophy)

Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asas (TITAS) - Basic and Islamic Civilization (University Course)

Pemikiran Kritis - Critical Thinking (University Course)

Tomorrow, I shall add in:

Bahasa Melayu Akademik LKM 300 - for all Malaysian citizen with credit in BM (University Course)

Either Bahasa Perancis or Bahasa Korea.

Total of credit hour/unit: 20

Why no Communication subjects?

Because I transfered my result for Mass Communication and Human Communication from UNISEL. And the next subject in line I am suppose to take is not offered this semester.

I DAH HOMESICK!!!

Day 9 at USM, Penang. I dah start missing home. I love the place, I'm warming up to the people but the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side. Today is the first night without any activity, therefore sorrow succumbs me.

I miss Abah and Mama and listening to Sinar Pagi with them in the car every morning on our way to KL.

I miss being kicked by Adik. I miss his snores at night. I miss his smell.

I miss Feed Me weekends with Abang E, Kak Anum, Abang Ayis, Bobo, Kak Sha, Arwen.

I miss laughing out loud, really loud with Ya, Hani and Syaniz.

I miss going to Kak Long's house and be amongst the noise and little fights of Nurin, Hakim, Iki, Izzat and Nana.

I miss Toto and Neni. I have them in my mind and my heart. And their message in my inbox. Which I'm not reading again because I'll tear up. Again.

I miss hanging out with Lya. We are stupid.

I miss Millie. Sampai sekarang tak dapat spend quality time lagi.

I miss Nana, and her desire for a boob job.

I miss my kakak-kakak, Puan Azian, Miss Ad, Puan Gina.

Believe it or not, I miss UNISEL. The life I had there. The lives I've encountered there.

The good stuff, the bad stuff, the shit that happened. I miss it all.

I'm no longer the big fish in the pond.

I'm no longer surrounded by the ones who love me.

I'm away. I'm far way. I want to be home.

And my playlist is not helping. At all.

I pulak bukan jenis who calls all the time. Tak tahu nak cakap apa. The one dearest to me, yang tu yang paling susah for me to have phone conversations with. Abah, Mama, Toto, Neni, the one I am missing the most. The ones I have nothing to talk about and everything to talk to.

Susah jugak kalau selama ni dah terbiasa hardcore, independent. I don't know how to attend to myself. Siapa yang baca ni..call lah I. Message pun takpe.

* Untuk tatapan umum

I agak susah payah nak cari gambar bilik di Desasiswa Cahaya Gemilang. So here are pictures of my room for people yang Google Desasiswa CG nanti.

The room accommodates 2. Each person will get a bed, a wardrobe, a study table, and a computer table. There's also 2 electric sockets for each person.

Tengok tu, baju tak unpcak pun lagi. Carpet/tikar bawak sendiri ye. And also you comforter set, pillows, etc to make the room feels like home. Jangan jadi macam I, of all the things, I forgot to bring a laundry basket. They do sell it here at Kedai Mahasiswa tapi I nak ikut my theme colour, purple!

I baru try pakai washing machine dia tadi. Sekali basuh RM3. Bawak detergent and softener sendiri.

Pastu sidai kat luar bilik. Tengok, seminggu punya baju!

OH! I suka USM sebab all the bags, chains, whatever they give us is according to the uni colour, PURPLE! My favourite colour.

Last week while visiting the faculty, I saw Miss Ad's students assignments for visual comm. A boy drawn a wristwatch as an item representing him. I told Miss Ad I would have draw a butterfly to represent me. Because I love butterflies and for it to represent a social butterfly.

Wait! I'll update briefly about my 'new life' in USM. I was assigned to Desasiswa Cahaya Gemilang or CG as we all address it. It will be my hostel and sports house for the first year and the rest, should I continue and able to stay there.

We all learned cheer to raise the spirits and show others we are better than the rest. The cheer is, kid like. Well, I dah terbiasa dengan national champions kan? But the song was okay and I especially like the boria they created.

BUT, the lack of spirit from the new CG members makes it hard to allow those cheer and chants to sound aspiring. Semua book smart. Bosan gila. I dah macam perempuan galak celah-celah diorang. Adalah jugak a few yang ada potential jadi semangat2 ni. Tapi aih. Tengok lah.

Here's the thing. I rasa sebab dalam jiwa ni dah bergelodak sangat to have something done, to feel like I achieve something (sebab there's this guy nama Hanif from my course and my desa, baru 3 hari orientasi dah jadi MC untuk dinner desa AND ketua pembaca ikrar majlis sambutan siswa) or to burst out. I kan jenis tak sabar, pastu takleh nampak competition.

Jadi, I rasa my head went off just now because when they are looking for a volunteer for a mascot, I asked what is the mascot? They said, a butterfly! And I gleefully exclaimed NAK!

Kau dah gila ke Farah Hani?

Okay, that's what I am suppose to be doing but here I am - updating Serendipity (while listening to Hindi songs). Nak buat cemana kan? PC sebelah ironing board. Banyak okay baju nak kena kemas. I tak tahu nak bawak apa dan ultra malas sebenarnya. Dahlah ada lagi barang-barang belum beli. Kaki dah lunyai dah sebab minggu ni practically everyday keluar cari barang-barang, or went out with the various dearly beloveds.

The weekly schedule I wrote earlier seems to go according to plan. Except that I didn't get to spend any time with Milly. Its okay, she will be back soon. Its in her nature =P But i did managed to go back to Shah Alam to see Kak Nora, Miss Ad and Cwoo. Plus Ayaq and even experience Ya's driving.

So how do I feel?
I feel blessed. Why?

• All the things I bought for uni was sponsored by many family members.
• My school friends made time to go out with me.
• Despite not seeing each other for years, were not from the same class or cliques, we all can get along perfectly.
• A very simple visit for Suhaila at Maxmara turned into a wholesome laughing session.
• I got gifts from people I dont expect. Really dont expect it. Thank you so so much!

On the other hand,

I have never not have Ya by my side. Metaphorically and literally. We've been in the same school/campus/environment since we were born. This will be new.

Leaving the family? Yang itu boleh handle.

Starting of at UNISEL was easy. I immediately felt superior when I started. My confidence level was higher than my height. USM? I don't know. I'll let you know over the weekend.

I don't know. This is new. I just don't know.