I don't get it!
WHY OH WHY does non-readers not understand not to bloody bother me when I'm reading?
I'm in my reading mode, thus I'm in another world.
Seriously, and then you asked why I'm such an emo person?
Well, I'M READING!!!

P/s: Did I mention I love Wikipedia? Its like the Holy Grail of informations. The knowledge warehouse. I cant begin to explain what i got to know through Wikipedia. Its so detail and specific and long!
Oh i love you, Wikipedia.

Read!!!
Great, great book. I was moved to tears.
Im glad after 4 or 5 years of wanting to read this book, I finally did!
Just in time I must say, as it was not appropriate for my age back then.
If you love The Notebook, read this too.

By the way,

Quick read it before it turned into a movie! Played by my choice of actress to play the lead female character, Rachel McAdams. And...ermmm Eric Bana for the lead man. I wanted Johnny Depp but i guess thats too much to ask.

This is my friend. I call her nana,

Dont know why I post this, but the photo made my day.

Don't worry no spoilers.

This will be a short brief post. (unless my fingers take control of my head)

As I'm writing this post, i am still splotchy with tears. Not because death of the characters( okay maybe that triggers it) but because this book marks the end of Harry Potter. A legacy.

As Rowling said it, a lighting can never strike the same place twice...i should think so too.
One can write so many good stuff, but only one of it will have the success of a lifetime.

Take Shakespeare for example. he wrote many, but he was famous for Romeo and Juliet the most.

To dear Miss Joanne Kathleen Rowling,
If i ever see you in my lifetime, please bear with me. As i will shamelessly hug you and burst into tears at the same time. That will be my way of expressing my gratitude. Thank you for colouring my childhood and adolescent years with your books, and great words. You made a girl confessed her desperation to read your books more than wanting a boyfriend.

Thousands of thank you, keanorlinsya.

p/s: I excitedly finished this book in a day, and now regrets it. I should have savour my last moments with Harry, Hermione, Ron, Hagrid, The Weasleys, Ginny, Neville, Luna, Dumbledore's Army, the whole Hogwarts community including the ghosts, and the rest of wizarding world.
Oh dear is my childhood over?

Have you ever feel the tingling sensation? Or butterfly in your stomach? Hot flushes? The symptoms of nervousness. I have. Especially when I'm nervous about things I don’t want to happen. Or when I would like those things to happen but are surrounded by guilt and conscience. Kinda like this, I know its wrong but I still want to do it. Get it? These usually happen, when i’m in my own dilemma. But somehow, I’m also having this feeling in my friend’s case.

Kesian dia. She’s this sweet sweet girl. Nice too. Use to have a boyfriend, but it’s been a while since she’s been with somebody. She’s not choosy, men are. Men just don’t take a second look at girls who is not hot. Simply said. They say they want nice girls but they never look at girls who are not hot, which are the nice ones. Instead they go for the ones with nice features and blame them for their bitchy attitude/the eyes wandering at their girl. Hey guys! Face the facts, it’s a package. You want hot, u get everything that comes with it. Live with it.

Anyway so this friend of mine, D; finally met someone. The thing is, he’s almost 15 years older than she is and married. God! Sometimes I wonder if he really is into her or it is just a fling. Mid life crisis? Maybe.

What scares me the most is how D is going to stop herself from liking him. She ended it, quite a few times but they seem to patch things and start all over again. For a girl who doesn’t have a boyfriend, having attention like that memanglah best! Come on, even if you are already with somebody you will fall for this kind of guy. Heck! Even I fall for him just by listening to her stories.

He texts and calls her everyday. Willing and wants to make time for her. Sends sweet messages. Say things he’s not suppose to. He takes her out. They chat on messenger. They’re practically dating! Sigh. He is really acting like her boyfriend. And sometimes she cant help acting like her girlfriend, sorry to say but they do have lover’s quarrel. I’m scared for her. I’m scared that she’s too young for him. I’m scared if things really are getting serious. I’m scared if people look at her as the other woman. Please, she’s too young. I know she’s scared too.

I know i’m not supposed to encourage her to be with him. Believe me I tried. But in the end it’s still up to both of them. If he wasn’t old and married, I would have said go ahead. Seeing how he cares for her even if I have never met him. But the fact is she considers him as her brother. And him, I wish I know what is on his mind. Why do men go for younger girls? What say you?

Author's note: This post was written in May, but for some reason I decided not to post it then.

This incident happened a month ago. Didnt have that much of a reason to blog bout it then, until today.

To re-tell the story.
Last month, a customer left a wallet on one of our (PDI) off bin. Upon seeing the wallet, I told the old chinese woman (around 40-ish) to take it before someone else took it because its near the entrance. She was looking at the display clothes and her back was facing the wallet (where she was just browsing through). She quickly took it, wait. Dengan menggelabah, she took the wallet and ran towards the exit. Mind you, our store is directly next to the exit. I was like "apahal laju sgt? takut sgt kene curik, padahal tengah tengok baju."

15minutes later...

Girl called E: Miss, u ada nampak wallet saya tak?
Me: Ha? Warna brown, panjang?
E: Haah, ade nampak tak saya letak mane?
Me: Alamak. Saya dah bg customer cina. Saya ingat dia punya. Sorry sangat2!!! Saya taktau, ingatkan dia punya.
(Which was undoubtably a stupid answer and even more asinine move I made)
E: Haaaaa?? Kenapa bagi kat dia? You ade nampak i pegang tadi kan?
Me: Sory.......tak perasan. Sorryy!!!
(She and her friend continued looking for it, and then went to the management office to lodge a report but NOT a police report.)

Turns out she put her (apparently new) scooter's key in her wallet.
Since she's stranded there, I wanted to take responsibility. So my dad and I, we sent her back to her uni. Not very far from where I work. My dad told her countless times to lodge police report but she refused as she was afraid her dad might found out. Another problem was that she's afraid to ask from her dad the spare key for the scooter. Entah apa ditakutkan sangat, i dont know. During the journey, my dad told me to reimburse her. The fine for lost IC and whatever money in her wallet, also to duplicate her key. Im fine with that since its partly my fault.

The next day, she asked her friend to come to PDI and asked me to meet her outside. She asked me to pay for her IC (RM50) and RM25 from her wallet. I gave her RM80. Extra Rm5 for the key. And i thought we're settle. I can still remember her words.
"Kak sebenarnye saya segan nak cakap, tapi tadi saya dah buat IC kene denda RM50. Lepastu, dalam wallet saya ada RM25, boleh tak kak? Boleh ye? Saya 'student'."
Oh dear god, typing those words make me feel like slapping her face. Kau nak buat kesian, aku kasi terus RM80. Enough to keep her quiet.
"Akak ni baik sangat la, Tuhan je boleh balas" Yea..yea..pared-schmared! So, settled.
I thought wrong.

Today she called,
E; "Assalamualaikum kak, ni E yg wallet tu. Kak, saya dah tukar kunci dah. Ermm bole tak kak.."
Me: "Eh, kan haritu saya dah bagi RM80, duit untuk kunci sekali."
E: "Oh tak2, haritu RM50 untuk IC, RM30 untuk duit dalam wallet"
Me: "Haritu kata dalam wallet RM25, so I bagi RM5 untuk kunci."
E: "Oh kak, saya tukar kunci mahal kak, kena RM50 sebab ni dengan tempat scooter skali"
Me: "Habis tu takkan nak suruh I bayar, saya dah bayar RM80. Kan kita dua-dua mengaku salah, I already paid my half."
E: "Habis tu akak nak salahkan saya lah ni? Bende ni takkan jadi kalau akak tak kasi wallet saya kat orang tu"
(Hearing that, I already started to boil, belum burst out saja)
Me: "Hey!! Skarang ni saya tengah mengaku salah, dan saya dah bayar. Takkan yang ni pun saya nak bayar?"
E: "Habistu akak taknak tanggung lah?"
Me: "Tak"

Then the line wasnt really clear...i tried talking to her, but i dont think she heard me, although i think i heard her mumble something. Last i hear was a Hiiiisssh!!! from her and she hung up.

I was outraged, choked up with tears when I called my dad directly after that. While talking to him I cant help letting my tears fall. I cant help it, when I have build up anger and I cant let it go I cry. Its soooo hard to contain myself.
My colleague, Rose asked: Why the hell are you crying?
Me: I cant help it, nak marah tapi xleh lepas. Takkan nak let go kat u dgn Ah Hoo? Tak pasal2 je.

Oh My God! I cant begin to start!
She have the guts to call me and ask for more money. Naik lemak, orang dah buat baik tu pijak kepala. Hello! At least I owned up and willing to pay for you. Kalau tak, kau tanggung lah semua tu sendiri. Yang bengap sangat takut nak mintak kunci kat bapak tu buat ape? Takdelah kau susah sangat spend money pergi tuka everything. And I tak faham kenapa she refused to lodge a police report. Its a must. Kau ada juvie record ke? Hmm..come to think of it, she must. I think shes an extortianist. Nasib baik aku halalkan duit. Kalau tak sampai mati pakai IC duit haram.
If i am her (mati hidup balik pon taknak) , I malu nak mintak duit. Especially since the first time was given wilingly. Malu gila! The cheek of her to say those words to me. Geram!

Dear E (which stands for extortianist by the way),
If you were to find some goodness in your heart, OWN UP. Ur a grown woman, tak payahlah nak sorok from ur dad. Bukan nye boleh mati kalau bagitau. And stop taking advantage, your making youself look like the victim but you and I both know that it all started with you. Sendiri tak menjaga harta. Sedarlah sikit..kalau I tak membantu, bulan ni kat hostel tu entah ape la kau makan. I myself work to get money, and I certainly dont intend to spend it on a careless person like yourself. Learn to live better and not make other people lives miserable. You nak susahkan diri sendiri go ahead, mine..you might as well go to hell!

I didnt think this news made it to Malaysia. but it was shocking.
I came across it from a blog. this report is from Reuters. Read on.

LONDON (Reuters) - The two-year-old daughter of a senior insurance executive died in hospital on Tuesday, police said, two days after she suffered massive head injuries while at home with her parents in central London.
Yanire Izaga, whose father Alberto Izaga was arrested after police were called to the Thames-side apartment on Sunday morning, was pronounced dead by doctors at St Thomas's Hospital, where she had been on life support.
A police statement said a post mortem would be carried out to determine the cause of death and an inquest opened. It also said a team of child abuse officers would investigate.
Alberto Izaga, a member of Swiss Re's executive board, was sectioned under the Mental Health Act on Monday and has been admitted to a London hospital for examination.
The Daily Mirror reported that police found his daughter lying unconscious in her nightdress and bleeding from her nose, ears and mouth.
They were called to the apartment after neighbours heard a child screaming, a woman crying and a man shouting amid loud thudding noises, the paper said.
Izaga, 36, was considered a high-flyer at Swiss Re and worked in the company's landmark "Gherkin" tower in the City.
The Spanish citizen is married with one daughter, and was elected to the board of the Association of British Insurers last year. His wife, also a businesswoman, had kept a vigil at her daughter's bedside since Sunday morning.
Swiss Re said on Monday it was "deeply saddened" by the family tragedy, but would not comment further.
Colleagues of Alberto Izaga's have described him as a relaxed, family man who enjoyed sports outside of work.

Read more here and here. And the full coverage here.

*Supposedly the father flip out because Yanire 'caught' him and her mother in one of their 'sessions'. And now he is claiming he was hearing voices before the incident. I think, it was a mistake. Just a simple mistake turned ugly. Yanire, rest in peace.

3 guesses.
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Anyhow, last week i talked to my dad about going to Laundry Bar to watch live gigs. After a through and through father-daughter talk. We have reached an agreement. i am allowed to go, with friends that he trust and MUST take care of myself. He's okay bout me going to the clubs but what worries him is the vultures. The guys who spike girls drinks and such for their benefits. And the aftermath. Go figure.

I hope he realised now that my curfew needs to be later than 11 pm.

*Just for the record, my dad knows i dont do booze and smoking serta kebanyakan perkara2 haram lain. So thats settle.

For a girl who never watches Transformers in her life (due to no reruns of the show during my childhood) I frikkin LOVE TRANSFORMERS!!! Watched it yesterday at iMAX (5times bigger than other cinema screens.) with my dad; a transformers geek.

My uncle said in his blog, Transformers rock! So hard that he cheered in the cinema when Optimus Prime gave the commands, Autobots! Roll out! Being the geek that he was, he nearly cried watching the movie. The nostalgic feelings. Dont laugh, i know not some but most of you felt the same way too when overwhelmed by nostalgic feelings. Even my dad. Oh yes, he was moved to tears too when the autobots gathered in the alley to introduce themselves.

(Alley scene)
Me : Now i know why Achik wanted to cry watching this movie, i felt the same way too!
Abah : Abah pun. Nak menitik air mata.

Oh well! I had one too, when i accidently read Doraemon's ending. He finally left Nobita in order to let him grow up. As long as Doraemon stays with Nobita, he will never grow up. So he went back to the future and left Nobita to cry (yang jenis banjir skali ngan air hingus keluar) sampai demam. But Doraemon came back and talk it through with him. And again, he left Nobita to cry jenis banjir...Doraemon never returned. As i read the final line, with Nobita's picture crying his heart out...i cried too. Reading Doraemon never felt the same again. i regret reading that one story. After sooooo many years, it finally ended. I have been reading Doraemon since i know how to read. And the comic have always been there. Letting go was hard. Really hard. Anywayyyy....

For those who doesnt want to watch the movie because they changed a little bit of the robot's design or because the gazette aint that good, you are missing a LOT! Go watch the movie, you will be proven wrong. I loved it everytime they transform! Whoa!!! Bumblebee gempak jugak eh? Cube sebesar gajah, he transformed it to the size of a cube shaped laptop. Hot damn!

The cast was great too. Enough eye candy apart from the robots themselves. Mikaela (whats her name?) and Josh Duhamel. And a geek. Shia LeBouf played the character well. Waaahhhh!!! I cant get over how great the movie was. They have everything! Comics, Great CGI, Great cast, songs, best fighing sequence for non-humans, great shots, cinematography, a lil bit of comedy, suspense, drama, romance, the fictional reality. Waaaaaaaa!!!! i have to go watch it again. I MUST! Jgn jadi macam 300. Movie best nak mati, and i watched it once? Rugi beb!
Looks like its worth it (while it last) that i bought 3 Transformers shirts for rm80 eh?

Mr.Bay, ill be waiting for the sequel. Autobots, roll out!