Kadang-kadang hampir terlepas cakap dengan sebarangan orang. Memang terus-terang, tak minat lagi nak teruskan di sini. Kalau boleh, esok mahu hantar surat minta dilepaskan. Tapi masih belum boleh. Jangan biarkan yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran. Menangis air mata darah nanti.

Sungguh aku lagi rela mula semula semuanya. Susun langkah satu-persatu. Corak laluan dari permulaan. Biar sendirian, biar tak berteman. Aku lagi rela kalau dari mula sampai tiba noktahnya aku seorangan. Aku mahu hanya sendirian.

Setahun setengah untuk mula semula. Seorang. Aku mahu itu.

There's a list of characteristic, or behaviour I've written. Some of it are these:

• Someone who is there for me - come rain, come shine.
• A person who has a temper, but only I can sooth it.
• A nameless relationship, something only we know.
• One who understands me, and vice versa.
• Always can carry a great conversation
• Makes me happy, by just being there.
• Rajin bawak pergi makan and enjoy eating too
• Can make me feel insecure, defensive because he's better than me.
• Gets along really well with my friends and family

I pernah dapat semua ni. At different time in life. I just nak cakap, apa-apa kita mintak mesti Tuhan akan bagi. Tak semestinya dan dan tu. Dia tak pernah katakan tidak. Selain Ya, Dia akan cakap bukan sekarang, atau berikan pada kita dengan cara lain. To remind us, what we want might not exactly be what we need.

I have a friend who kept saying he wants to die. Tak sanggup nak lalui macam-macam benda yang jadi. Asyik mintak mati. Dia dapat apa dia nak. Tapi bukan dia yang mati, satu-satu orang keliling dia pergi. No joke! I told him, bersebab semua tu jadi. God have bigger plans for you. That's why He gave what you wanted but not how you wanted it.

Mintak lah apa-apa. For sure dapat. Kadang-kadang lambat, sebab belum sampai masa untuk terima. Kadang-kadang lain jadinya, untuk beritahu bukan itu yang sesuai untuk kita. Yang pasti, memang ada cara kita akan terima juga. There's always a silver lining if it doesn't go your way. Remember that.

One more thing boys and girls, appreciate! Sementara ada orang atau perkara yang kita rasa tak mahu, tapi sebenarnya perlu. Kadang-kadang kita tak nampak perkara yang kita perlu, kita cuma nampak benda-benda yang kita nak. In the end, its not what we wanted that counts, its what we needed. And He knows it best!

Teeeeeeeeet! I no no has pokerface. I has Monopoly face. Because I don't play poker but Monopoly. Aku dah jadi lame. Pardon my newy developed lameness.

So anyway, after GV ended, an aunty came to me and started chatting with me. Very mengejut. berterus-terang and downright true. Its shocking weh! The conversation goes a lil like this.

"Sorry ah, aunty cakap you jangan marah. You ni very hot tempered ah. Can see from your face. Sangat senang marah. But now not so much anymore. You can control it a bit. Muka you garang, sombong. Orang dont want to tegur. But after talk with people than okaylah. Like if aunty talk to you first, then you very friendly. You outside very sombong, but actually inside lembut hati. Senang kesian. You the type will do anything for friends. Sangat sayang kawan. Betui tak? But you pilih-pilih. If you close to one person only that one lah. And also, if orang sudah buat salah dengan you, you takmau rapat lagi. You mulut cakap okay loh. Tapi hati sudah takmau.


Some more you tak suka orang control. Kalau orang tanya-tanya pigi mana, keluar ke apa, balik pukul berapa, you tak suka. Pada you asal pandai jaga diri, you tau takda buat tak elok, selamat, then okaylah. Right now you dont have a boyfriend. Got someone who likes you but you don't want. You mau fokus pelajaran. And also you ada suka satu lelaki. Tapi takda apa jadi. Sebab you taktau dia macamana. Betui tak? Dia jenis senyap lah. Tak sama macam you punya. Kalau dua-dua jenis banyak-banyak cakap senang gaduh maa"

Is that scary or what??? She randomly came up to me and gave that analysis. The best thing was it is almost 90% accurate. SERIOUSLY?

Of being the Mak Tiri for Timah and Geng Gitar Lapok.
The planner for classmates, housemates, and the usuals.
The giddy, perky groupie of Violet.
The second loudest laugh after Cassie, ahead of Mas.

Be happy wherever you are. Love you all. MAX!

My last post was about Terengganu ey? Banyak sangat dah jadi since then. I went back to Kuantan for makan besar tiap-tiap malam. Kalah Cina celebrate CNY kan? Met up with Jaja who was in Kuantan for CNY holidays too. Took her and her family to TC. Must see place kan? Haruslah. 

Lagi apa about Kuantan? Same ol' same ol' lah. Family berkumpul untuk makan. Nom nom nom. 

And also for Abang E's wedding discussion. As Juna/Alba is back, we were given the task to record the minute. Jot down details and all.

I purposely asked for myself not to be given the role of penganggar or tukang bagi telur. Taknak. I am passed that dah kot. Kot lah. Tengok-tengok itu jugak kene buat nanti kan?

And here is the beach trip in Penang last Sunday!

We actually planned to teman Intan the butterfly to The Butterfly Park for her to do some research. She will be playing a butterfly for a play so she needs to know stuff for butterfly. Gila redundant sentence aku. Macam budak sekolah rendah buat essay.

But sadly, Intan got a really high temperature on the day. So we asked her to take a rest. For the 4 of us, it was nom nom trip and Monopoly madness the whole day. We stopped at 4 places for food and drinks, and played Monopoly at 2 of them.

First we had banana leaf rice for lunch at Little India. Full MAX but we really really enjoyed the meal.Then, we went to Abu Siti Lane to get coconut jelly tapi dah habis so we bought 5 biji kelapa and filled that blue tumbler next to Tangsue. Sadly didnt get to eat the isi because red ants got to it first before us.

We went to Annalakshmi next, for drinks and Monopoly. They have the most AWESOME and FTW Mango Lassi! And we loved the environment. Its so clean, breezy and relaxing. The place is actually a cultural centre. And at the back they have a sort-off restaurant that serve vegetarian food. The best thing is they have the You-Pay-Whatever-You-Want-to-Pay-by-Donation concept. Best kaaan? We all had 2 rounds of Mango Lassi kot. Ordered the second glass even before we finish our first. Tamak kan.

Finally, ze beaaccchhh! Turun kereta, bentang tikar, Zoe terus tidur, Yonkey terus terjun masuk, Tangsue and I tried to adapt. Tangsue worst than me. Hehe. But we managed to make Tangsue get acquainted to the sea. She was not a fan (still not a fan) because she apparently have fears of the unknown and the things she can't see. In this case, dasar laut.

All in all, it was a greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttt day! If only Intan, April and Munchee can join us. Tak cukup corum. I wanna do it again prease! Love you secret beach! Love you pretty people. Kisses!

Its the Chinese New Year holidays! And also our 1 week term break. Pada asalnya plan cuti nak ikut family Semenyih to Tiara Beach Resort, Port Dickson. And at the same time Dieyla/Awek ajak-ajak ayam ikut dia balik Terengganu. Jadi I gamble tanya Abah boleh ke tak. Siap bertekak semua lah kat phone walaupun cuak dan takut jugak sebenarnya nak mintak permission. Tiba-tiba......BOLEH!

Jadi, last Saturday berempat lah kami sekereta memulakan perjalanan ke Terengganu. Awek the driver, Cip the co-pilot, and Ana the paying passenger. I tukang buat bising selama journey tu. We crossed 4 states to get to Terengganu. So I updated my FB status konon-konon macam pergi roadtrip. Padahal lalu je. Penang-Kedah-Perak-Kelantan-Terengganu. Bunyi cam best je kalau dapat roadtrip betul-betul.

The journey from Penang to Kuala Terengganu was 8 hours of breezy, nyaman, dingin, and exciting smooth driving. We were stopped by JPJ once to check license, but the rest of the trip went on smooth. My lodging was at Awek's house. Terima kasih Awek, especially to your family bagi menumpang berhari-hari. Bagi makan nasik free, siap tanpa segan silu aku menambah lagi. Hehehehe

The first day we woke up late sebab qadar tidur. Kepenatan from the journey the day before. Persinggahan pertama adalah di gerai goreng pisang mak Awek! Di mana aku duduk situ dan makan keropok lekor, cekodok, jemput bawang, goreng pisang sampai kenyang. Free pulak tu! Her parents refuse to take any money. Pasni taknak makan dah kalau gi sana. Segan I. Sebab sah-sah aku makan memang bersungguh!

Kucing photogenic kat gerai mak Dieyla

Then we went to Kampung Cina, and found out that the stores along the street are taking part in CNY decorating competition. Since belum semua siap berhias dan hari pun hujan, jadi sekejap je lah kami ke situ.

We came back the next day at daytime for jalan-jalan camwhore session.

And also on the night of the judging by Terengganu MB for the decorating competition. Siap ada perarakan, lion dance, and one of the store actually brought in an orchestra to play songs in front of their store! Meriah gila okay! I'll have to tell all in another post.

Dang! I can't believe tiap-tiap hari kitorang pergi Kampung Cina. And its not big pun. Its just 1 street.

Day 2
Mulalah hari bersiar-siar dan photoshoot di KT. Tempat pilihan adalah Pasar Kedai Payang, Kampung Cina (lagi) dan beberapa tempat makan minum.

Sempat jumpa Ajis lagi! Since he's working for Kosmo Terengganu, mestilah kena jumpa! Tak sangka kawan aku yang paling slacker ni dah jadi trainee reporter. Beratus dah artikel. Bangga tengok kau dah jadi orang Ajis! Biarlah mereka di situ panggil kau dubuk pun.

Oh! On this day I pakai dress tu kan. Mak aih! Mata orang sana, melilau! Mungkin tak kena tempat, atau mungkin terlebih gorjes kot. Ahahahahahahah! Oh well!

Day 3

Hari kami berkelana di Taman Monumen Tamadun Islam. Tapi tak masuk pun. Instead we took the 40 minutes boat ride di Sungai Terengganu. Not bad. Siap ada tour guide explain macam-macam. Masa nak naik tu Awek dengan Cip punya first question, "Kau tak puas lagi ke dah Dondang Sayang kat Putrajaya?" Ehhh tu tempat lain, ni Terengganu. Dah berzaman aku tak datang Tenganu nih!

Best hokay nak photoshoot! Next time nak kena datang balik sebab tak masuk Taman Monumen dengan Muzium Terengganu.

Petang, kami lepak di Pantai Batu Burok. Awek main lelayang. Cip ambil gambar. Dan I, berbaring atas pasir sambil baca buku. Bliss!

Katanya Jumaat, pasar malam sepanjang-panjang beach tu. Mostly gerai bundle. Menetes dengar. Takpelah takde rezeki.

Day 4
Hari terakhir. Sedih meninggalkan kota raya yang menjadi saksi bahawasanya bapaku benarkan aku bercuti dengan kawan-kawan dengan berkat dan keizinan. Eheh! Drama much?

Berangkat lah aku ke stesen bas dihantar Awek dan Cip. Tiba-tiba dikejutkan dengan kemunculan Ajis yang turut sama datang menghantar. Thanks korang!

I really really appreciate this trip. Enjoyed it tremendously! Nanti kita trip tempat lain pulak eh?