Emo laaaa kene pakai fon second hand yang cikai dan lopek. Waaaaaaaaa!!!
X rela!!! Dahla nokia. Xde mp3 player. Xde kaler screen. Busuk! Nk layan everyday pun susah.
Huish! Nyampah nk type. Leceh nauzubillah. Benci!

I cut my hair btw, shoulder lenght. Tapi xde sape pun perasan!!! Wasted je RM20. Hish korang nih, bila i x potong rambut sibuk2 tanya if i cut my hair. When i finally did, no one notice??? Tambah emo.

Dah laaaaa...malas nk fikir. Tambah2 phone xde camera nk self obsessed kejap tunjuk hair lenght baru. Huish!

Lagi satu.....sape nk bantu bank in money untuk phone baru saya? Mahukan w380i berwarna purple. Janji xkan hilang!! Sungguh!

Updates! OK Go!

Im back in Shah Alam, started sem2 on 12th May aritu. 11th May sempat lagi sneakout ke Harmonic May Rockestra menonton kawan2 perform dan last time enjoy gig sebelum mula study balik (so I say).

I gain 5kilo during cuti and have not managed to lose it yet even if i eat rice only once a day and no dinner. Hadoih! And Anip, my vegetarian friend lost 5kilo during cuti, and suddenly he is everyone's nutritionist. Jealous lah tgk perut dia dah flat! Demmm.

And yes, i lost my phone last Tuesday. Tulah sapa suruh pg tgk midnight show tanpa berkat keizinan ibu bapa? Went out for movies with Phia, Sara, Arie and Adly. Lost my phone somewhere in Arie's car or in Sunway Pyramid. Also lost RM20 the same night. And to top it all...Arie's car flat out. Battery kong! Gila mengundang bad luck mlm tu. I got a new SIMcard dah, still using the old number. Pls message me bgtau its ur number. thanx yea? Really appreciate it.

And yes, the case with my rumah sewa. Too much to tell in a short post, so next time baru berceritera. On a lighter note, we had kenduri doa selamat on Friday and a housewarming BBQ afterwards. Quite fun. It wasnt fun at first sebab all the people who came we (Sara Phia and I) dont know. At all! Invited the boys from the class, sbb yg tu kami rapat. Takkan nk ajak all 60 ppl! GIla? Tetapi they were so malu2! Unlike their usual behaviour. Anyways, afterwards budak2 ARUS datang. My seniors, Pakchaq and his classmates. Baru happening! Thanx for coming guys. Barulah x rasa alienated at our own party. Pekhui!

I finally have my menstrual! Yay!
Why is it worth blogging about? because im abnormal.
Abnormal in the context, i dont regularly have my menstrual...once or twice aa year. With my record being 7 months.
And in another context, im excited enough to blog about it to the world.
Yeah, im abnormal.
Im going to keep counting for the next time i have it. Which i predict will be in the end of next sem.
Oh well.

Yes! The girl who managed to achieve a very tak senonoh result in SPM which consists all grades (yerp..A! to D7. I got it all) have proved that she's not stoopid after all.

Faster congratulate me, i got 4As and 1B and a CGPA pointer of 3.8. Yeay-ah!!
Ironically, my B was for Computer and Information Processing. Sia-sia menghadap computer tiap2 hari. Memang sah tak process information if what i do is chat in the lab during classes. Oh yea, i blog too!
Hahahahahaha!
Next sem lah pula, aim for 4 flat.

Oh btw, ini message khas untuk kamu, i beat u man! Nak bongkak sikit, kutuk aku lg kat lecturers!

Give me some time. I have made my decision. And this time im going to go through with it. Execute the plan. With help from friends. I am withdrawing my feelings from him, for real but still continue being friends. I like hanging out with him, being friends with him. So why should I stop doing what i enjoy just so i can move on from my feelings? Its a crush. A phase that everyone goes through. And i have always known its never going to happen between me and him. Hey, u cant force who u accidentally like. And i cant force to stop someone i like too. But now, im certain i can move on. I should and i must. For myself.

Knowing the whole story helps too. An eye-opener. A girl liked him when he doesnt and after all those years he started liking her. Maybe longer. I wouldnt mind if its going to be her. She's cute, she's fun and i would definitely go for her too if im a guy. She 'discovered' him first. And yes, they would be great together.

I've got my closure. I can move on.

Why do you care so much when he doesn't even make an effort?
Why do you know so much about him when he barely notice you?
Why do you try to get to know him when you know he is ignorant?
Why are you not turn off when he develops unacceptable behaviour?
Why do you smile everytime you see things that remind you of him when nothing remind him of you?
Why don't you get jealous when he talk about other girls?
Why does it feel like nothing he does is wrong?
Why did you try to move on when you know you can't?
Why can't you just be friends?
Why do you have to develop feelings for him?
Why do you wait?
Why do you hold on when you know its never going to happen?


How long do you wait?
How do you notice when its over?
How do you move on?
How do you withdraw?
How do you stay friends?


You Dont.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to...



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

something perfect to wear if the employer,
or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..

a youth she's content to leave behind....



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age....



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....

a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....

one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....

a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...



A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....

a feeling of control over her destiny....



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

how to fall in love without losing herself..



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without;
ruining the friendship...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

that her childhood may not have been perfect...but it's over...



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. ..

whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally...



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table...
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

what she can and can't accomplish in a day...
a month...and a year...

Eversince i started liking guys (since im 15) there have been 7 of them that i had a crush on. And from tat list, there's 3 who really are worth mentioning. And all of them had a song to remind me of them. Kira cam background music hihihihi...

• At 15, the Tahfiz turns DJ who loves to sing I Dont Wanna Know by Mario Winans.
• At 16, a nu-jazz singer from a reality show but turns out he's a pervert. The song was Bukan Diriku by Samsons. Significant because it wasnt me in his loooooooong list of admirers.
• Still at 16, a one day crush. He introduced me to Izinkan by VE. And i was a big fan of VE during that time.
• At 17, a family friend. Spend time with him during family vacation. Talk a lot, shared a lot. Didn't see him a lot afterwards. And so, Officially Missing You by Tamia.
• At 18, just got in the uni. The first guy i got close to but he's taken. Therefore Sayang Sayang by Alif Aziz. And by the way, i really do like that song in the first place.
• In between the guy before and the last guy. This one, i met at a gig and we clicked! Skeptical about liking him because i was thoroughly confused. I want to like him but i like the other guy too. His song is Kau by ELLO. He sang it to me loads! We even sang in his car on the way home.
• And him, the one who tops the list. Who i can't let go. Who i cant stop liking despite his gila-ness. Who got more than 1 song in his favour. Who im reminded of everytime i listen to All Apologies by Nirvana, and of course...everyday.