That emotions in the last post is turning to anger dah. So I am not giving it to anyone most definitely. Not that anyone would want it.

Seriously, I dont hate you yet. Im on the dislike side and if you keep this up, Im crossing over to hatred. And God knows if I ever hated someone I hate all their guts. I would not even look at the person because my face will give it away and I dont even want to look at the face.

And yes, I wont recognize your name. You will be a persona non grata to me. That is if I hate you lah. It is in consideration.

Andre pernah cakap aku ni jinak-jinak merpati sebab lelangit timbul.
Orang yang jinak-jinak merpati ni jenis mesra, friendly, senang rapat and mingle tapi belum tentu dapat. That got me thinking, betul kot. Sebab aku ni memang senang bergaul, senang rapat dengan orang tapi yang betul-betul aku nak tu memang sorang je. Lama pulak sanggup tunggu tuh! Aih!

Tak jugak dapat. Thing is, I know what I want but I dont make any effort to get it. And I always keep my distance. Sometimes too much. Physical contact amatlah strict, but emotionally Im weak. Even lecturer pun noticed I always give myself too much to my emotions.

Hmm..I want to give my emotions away to someone again. But first, I need to find that someone.

It was her last week as she is moving out to continue her studies elsewhere. I've only been friends with her since May 2008 when we were staying in Ferum but the bond we had seems like forever. Dia lah yang paling rajin nak melayan mood mengada2 orang. Tolong urut, main-main spa, electrician pun dia, bibik pun dia, kakak pun dia, aih. Dah rindu u dah! Tapi Shara is best linked to the word CAMWHORE!

This last week was extra fun. The whole house went out together 2 nights in a row. We played futsal on Tuesday night which was noisy as hell, had dinner together afterwards and on Wednesday night, our last supper together. One final lepak session.

We miss you already Sha! <33

Jamiroquai is coming to town! To perform at F1 Party and Maliq & D'Essential is going to be there too along with Atilia.

Question is, sanggup tak nak korbankan RM100 to be there and be the Cosmic Girl?

Of goz!

Just got back from Pintu Geng, Kelantan earlier this evening. Im beat. Eventhough I only slept throughout most of the journey, and peed. Haha the last time i remembered peeing at every stop was back in New Zealand. The weather was so cold, therefore I had to pee regularly.

This is Kelantan! It was burning hot and yet I (and all of the others) peed at every stop. It was so long! Too long sitting in the car. Penat tidur.

On the way there, Syaniz, Ya and I went with Toto and Neni. Ya and I slept the almost the whole time to which Syaniz asked "korang tak penat ke tido?"
Of course Ya and I had to be sarcastic about it.

Ya: Aih, hang nak buat apa lagi dlm kete ni? Main sorok-sorok?
Me: Haah! Jum main kejar-kejar sampai penat. Pastu boleh tido lagi.

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I am back in Shah Alam! Curik pinjam wireless rumah depan. And photos are finally up! Semalam x dapat upload kat PC Semenyih.

Anyways, went to Kelantan on Thursday for Kak Nana's wedding. It was exhausting tapi makan BEST! Kadang-kadang ada gak laa yang tak best sebab manis. Murtabak manis, failed! Yang terbaek tentunya roti canai kari gearbox di Bachok. Fuuh!

Roti canai kari gearbox!

Shopping tak termakbul sangat. Didn't go to Rantau Panjang due to time constraint. Akan tetapi, penat jugak berjalan di Wakaf Che Yeh and Pengkalan Kubor. Xde bende sangat. Dalam pada tu shopping jugak lah. Mana boleh tengok je. Macam makan, mana boleh tengok je.

I'll let the pictures tell the story.

Scary tengok my nieces. They are going to grow up too beautiful

Neni saya ranggi!

Ni motor toto tapi sekarang di KB, Ayah Ngah pakai. If only I knew its been sitting in th store for years. Aih! Kalau tak dah hebat dah bawak motor.

Hello hello hye!!!
Im back! Nyeh nyeh. My emo mood tak lama this time. Alhamdulillah.
I've been missing Serendipity so much, but lack of interest and turbulence in the emotion department have kept me from blogging.
Its good to be back!

I'll be gone from the academic world for 4 days starting tomorrow. We are heading to Kuantan first, and then kelik Kelate for kak Nana's wedding. Woooohooo!!! Skip class, yay! Shopping! Cuti-cuti Malaysia! Makan sampai tak daya woohooo!

Weight gain alert; as I will be stuffing myself with lotsa glorious fresh seafood. Aih! My constant friend when I go back home to Kuantan, gluttony. Tapi takpa, hearty meal equals too happy heart. Gah! poyo je.

Till then earthlinks!

Rindu menulis.
Rindu ekspresi.
Rindu meluahkan.

Tapi jari letih menulis.
Bibir jarang terbuka.
Hati tidak mahu menukil.
Masih terkunci.
Masih tidak berahi.

Dont bother to find out why Im having a complicated relationship, it always is.
Don't even try to find out who it's with because Im the last person you are going to get the dirt from.

I'll be on hiatus.
Sehingga terasa mahu menulis semula.
Sehingga kembali jadi diri sendiri.
Perlu seketika untuk menilai diri sendiri.

Bukan semua benda fun and glam.
Bukan semua perkara boleh diceritakan.
Tapi semua benda boleh dirahsiakan.

I noticed that Im almost always attracted to people with J initials. With different reasons.
Let's see.. there's Johnny Depp for obvious reasons. James Franco. Ami James of Miami Ink. Jessica 'hot mummy' Alba. Hugh Jackman. Daniel Johns of Silverchair.

And recently, I discovered Im turned on watching lead guitarist of Radiohead plays. Jonny Greenwood. Baru dapat memerhati dengan lebih jelas. High cheekbone, dark hair, pale skin, visible collarbone, lanky, the whole drug addict look. My kinda guy.

Aih and he plays looking down, back to the audience. Kinda hold this mysterious vibes. Nak please?


But, he reminds me of someone when he performs. Jemmmm!

to be alone, just being with myself to clear my head. I usually do that with a book in hand, lying down with lots of pillows. So yesterday I did.

Book: Time Traveller's Wife, check.
Pillows: more than 5 on the mattress, check.
Disturbance: check. check. check. check. check.

When you live in a house with 12 other girls, its impossible to read peacefully. Aih.


I had to clear my head last night, after Benjamin Button, just had too! It was beautiful. Too beautiful. If only I watched it with someone special, or my best girls, It would have been perfect. My comrades was Phia (who laughs at every sad scene), Arie (who I'm not sure if he actually understands the story) and Adly (who wants to watch it as bad as I do but needs to pee every hour). Oh well.

The most memorable scene was a mere 5 seconds shot of Brad Pitt wearing white shirt and faded blue jeans with sunglasses on a yatch with oceanic background. Whoa!
Im a bimbo after all.