Sometimes you know its wrong but you need to speak about it to your friends. Just so those feelings you restraint wont channel to that place where it must go but should not.

I am feeling that now. And I cant think of any friend that would just listen. And the most they can do, listen and tell me NO. I dont need them to tell me that. I know that myself. I just want someone to listen so that I wont go after the thing they said no to.

Haha, writing in gray. I can write it with crystal clear image and say its a fiction Im working on. But no, I only write what I know. And this can be shocking.

So, No.
Im telling that now.

I havent been updating kan? Work have been taking a lot of my time. Very demanding. Truthfully, it feels like dating...with work.

But, I would like a person who demands my time and attention. One that can pull my shirt down when Im reaching the top shelf. One that makes my exhaustion gone with a smile.

And definitely one that can send me back home after work. Today I walked home from the office. Hebat tak? Haha.

Ever since I started working, gone are the time I spent on Twitter, Running Man and blog hopping. On most days I go to work at 7.30 and leave well after 5.30. Some days I feel so demotivated I dont want to come back, but also on the same day, something nice happens and I see myself returning there. Its my second month already. Can you believe it?! Im giving this place a chance for a bit more. You know office politics are everywhere so I just dismiss that. People here are nice and friendly. And one particular person is so highly motivated that Im partly scared and partly admiring his qualities. Okay enough. Lets share some raya pictures!

This year is the turn to celebrate in White House, Pekan, Pahang. 80 plus family members all bundled in one house! Havoc! As always, the morning of Eid will be a problematic day for all of us. There's not enough water for everyone to bathe. So this year my uncles installed a new pumping system. Everything was fine and dandy.....until the very morning itself. Alas! Still no water! So all the males in the family went to the mosque to shower and even there they had to compete with each other so that they can get ready early for Eid prayers.

All is good this year. I managed to give all my cousins duit raya. First salary for the family! InsyaAllah in future I can give more to more people.

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By the way, I still receive duit raya! Heh heh heh. Pictures below are from the many open houses and gathering I attended.

Oooops! The last picture is for another post ;)

Believe it or not, this is an emotional night for me.

It's time for the next phase. Time to payback all those hutang budi yang teramat banyak tak terbilang tapi sentiasa diingati. InsyaAllah one at a time.

Everyone, your girl has grown up.
And tomorrow at 7.15am, she reports for duty for her first job.

Please pray for the best for me. Amin.