The proposed word of the day is Sufficient by @nnegwa

Let's see. The most suited issue related to the word should be money and financial. But since Im lacking in that department and the story will be leaning towards the word insufficient, i shall not write about that. Instead, ill tell you bout what Im having in life that is more than enough, family.

Intro: big ass family, in good terms with everyone, always make time to hang out with one another.

As I mentioned earlier, I am not from a well off family. But indeed I have many family members than can afford to spend what they have outside their household. And since I am (sort of) in everyone's household, I've been blessed with a lot of opportunities and materials.

I have been abroad a few times, with expenses covered by cousins, aunts and uncles. I have nice clothes that I can't afford courtesy of them. Ive dined in overpriced eatery that serves meal for one but charges for three because of them. I've been labelled as a rich girl by some because I use a Vaio and iPhone that were gifts from them. Best of all, I had a wonderful childhood because of them.

My parents are nice people. They don't have much to offer but they give when they can. Jangan berkira, they say. Because God is Great. And true enough, what little they gave was returned to them through my brother and I.

This 'rich girl' went to USM without getting any allowance from parents. I went to university and bought all those necessities dengan ihsan family members. My father said all that I got right now are things he never dreamt he can actually provide for me. And we are all grateful.

I never really requested to get something. Things are mere items. Im not brand conscious not because I dont like branded things or Im not familiar with them. It's just simply coz I can't afford them and what I have is already enough.

I have enough. Enough hardship to appreciate what come by. Enough love to extend it to others. Enough hate to only want good things in life. Enough family and friends, and to never compare their value with money. Everything is sufficient. Im pretty sure God also give enough time for all of us to correct what is wrong. Only that we have to remind ourselves to use it right.

Sengaja name the post blues sebab its Monday (okay moving to Tuesday) and because I am bloody addicted to Big Bang's Blue. Dafuq! The song is also playing in my subconscious mind. I find myself waking up from sleep and the song is playing in my head. Not the intro but the bridge or second verse or randomly as if its been playing the whole time! Weird and sometimes annoying. Nasib baik its a nice song.

I know I've been neglecting Serendipity. If you look properly, you might actually find spider's web or two. Lets hope there's no rats though. So how have I been? What have I been up to? Nothing really.

After I finished my last paper, I packed my belongings and rushed home. Nothing awaits in USM anymore. And KL sounds so much more promising. Im on a job hunt already eventhough I plan to start working only after raya. Hopefully job search ends before that and I can secure a good job by Ramadhan.

The holiday plan was to chill for a week at home. Then a week in Tioman for Rozi's wedding and come back for a few days before going to Langkawi with family. But the plan is now changed due to some circumstance that require the wedding to be postponed. Sekarang dah macam tawar hati sebab Tioman wedding will take place on 15th. Same date with last day in Langkawi and a family gathering in Kajang. Knowing me, Ill choose my family over friends. Tapi ni both side of family ada something and a good friend from Amsterdam getting hitched in Tioman. Choices choices.

Le sigh. I feel that I must start writing again to cure my boredom. Everyday I wake up at noon before Zuhur. Teruk weyh! Tidur sebelum Subuh. Messed up gila. I dont like this. Maybe by mid July bila dah tak tahan bosan sangat, Ill start working part time somewhere.

As for now, swimming, driving class, belajar mengaji semula, language class, semua terabur entah ke mana. Duduk rumah dalam kebosanan je. Too comfortable at home. Keluar lepak pun malas.

As I hug you goodbye,
I feel my heart burdened
My arms wanting to tighten
Your hands bringing me closer
Closing in, sincere.

I feel a jumble of emotions flooding in.
Regret,
For recently discovering you.
For not knowing you enough.
Contested,
Feeling the warmth I shouldn't deserve.

As I hug you goodbye
I prepare for farewell
So long, until we meet again.









5.15 am.
You entered my dreams. Its almost real. If I am not me, I would have your fingers entwined with mine. And decide what it means later.

Guess who's back?

Back again.

Hani's back! Tell your friends!

My FYP is overrrrrrrrrrrrr! Now we are all busy raking our brains to finish our report and individual assignment due 5th May. Our last event STRIP: The Final Call went well, Alhamdulillah. I was so busy being nervous trying not to spoil the lighting of the whole event that night. And I managed to go through with all the technical difficulties! With glitches here and there. Bebe and I was sweating and trying to keep our cool in the technical room. Luckily Nicholas came to help us out. Menetes peluh sejuk. Since I was hungry and cranky, of course I did not manage to keep my cool. Thank God they were with me. Kalau orang lain yang annoying I bebel nonstop kot.

The next night we all went for our Rock & Roll Diamond themed Comm night. First prom I ever attended. Since I did not have the time to shop nor the money to get something new, I just wore what I have. My acid wash skinny jeans, plain black top, black cardigan with studs, peacock green satin shawl and black heels. Done!

Food was good, company was great, night was awesome. ADWAVE won a few awards. Us STRIPpers screamed our lungs out when they announced we won Best Teamwork and Best Creative Production. By the time our Deputy Dean announced we won Best Campaign we were all shrieking and running to get on stage! Apparently that's not all we won. We were also recipient for VC List - Persuasive Comm section. Yay for ADWAVE 2012: STRIP!

I didn't feel the sadness yet then because everyone was too busy taking photographs, smiling and laughing with each other. The feelings set once I'm in my room, uploading pictures. I regret not taking enough photographs with important people who matter during my 2 years here. I will definitely miss them. Hope all will be the best in the area they joined.

 

Harini puasa sebab semalam makan banyak gila. Perut terisi penuh, poket makin ringan.

Pergi STRIP in Shape workshop by Dr. Normala found out my body age is 43. Fat count is bad. Reaching the limit. And Im 15 kilos overweight.

Must do something! Walaupun taknak kurus. In the mean time....