Truce?

I've not been a good friend for sometime now.
To everyone.
I tend to snap easily, and lose my temper more than usual.

I need a scape goat. I blame work.

I'm having 4 problems:
1) A friend became distant and awkward towards me. I'm really sorry, i tend to act weird when its face-to-face contact.
2) My best friend didn't receive her bday wish (which was a big deal for her)
3) My bestest friend/cousin gotta straight in her face volcano lava, yes from me.
4) I lost myself.

Eventhough these things are bothering me so bad, i just don't feel like sorting it out.
I'm tired...of trying to please.
Just know that when I dont make an effort...it means u need to get over it.

Guys, thousand apologies, i don't even bother bout explaining myself.
I'm just gonna accept the blame.
Its so easy to be hurtful but so hard to forgive.
Since I'm the one hurting others, i apologise.
I'm tired of trying so hard pleasing others, being there for others, caring to much bout them that i end up forgetting myself.
Working gives me time out from others and i needed that.
I don't have to hear his and her side of the story and play the middle person.
I don't need to listen to a person's whine.

Its my turn to whine.
My turn to let out my feeling and for others to console me.
My time.