Hello Serendipity!
Gosh I miss you and I definitely miss writing. Been too long. I think in the midst of adapting to the job, I sorta forgot to be myself. I forgot to be fun. Corporate is sometimes too rigid. And the drama, holymatherrrrr! Old men are worst than high school girls! But that's in the past now.

Yup! I resigned. After 6 months of up and downs, crash course (which I never really understood) in Oil & Gas and a whole lot of events....I decided to move on. True, one can say that I am wasting such a great opportunity, but I don't want to stay. I'm not happy. I believe I will and can be happier in my element - creative communications! Therefore, I am on a job search again.

My previous job was actually my first interview. I didnt try anywhere else and I didn't even test the waters. This decision to leave (despite dipujuk dan dioffer macam-macam oleh the President), I owe it to myself. It wasn't a spur of the moment decision, I thought (not that) long and (pretty) hard. But this resistance and reluctance have always been in me. I need to go. So go I shall.

14th January will be my last day. Nearing the day, I do feel quite sad. Albeit management change for a few times during my employment period, I have been blessed by nice and happening office colleagues. Sure, there are some moments (almost every day) that I get cranky and bitchy because others asked the same question repeatedly, or we all were scolded by the boss early in the morning that everyone is in a foul mood... we had a great time. Goodbye guys, it was fun to work with you.

OK. Back to the topic. I digress because I was thinking about my acne and relating it to the job and work stress but really! I hear engagement and wedding news almost everyday! Not to mention the invitations all que-ed to next January! Man. Here I am without a job even. Hmph. Congratulations guys. Hope marriage will satisfy your hierarchy of needs! Pun intended.

Seems like my friends who are back from overseas also came back for their ceremony, and some share through messages or Whatsapp like its not a big deal. OKLAH! Im jealous because to me it will be a big deal (as currently it is already a big deal)- others are getting hitched and I don't even have a glimpse of walking towards that side. Boo hoo hoo.

Im sure I'll sprint when there's a splinter of sight.

Serendipity? Are you ever gonna happen again?

I think this is uber brilliant!

The title is also Katy Perry's song. Which I accidentally found while browsing through Jango during my boredom days as an intern at Bates. Back then the song sorta made my mind wander towards one person.

And now its wandering to that particular area again.

Big things are happening next year. Really big. So I may want to take the opportunity to sort out one important expect of my life. Maybe just maybe Ill be bold enough by then to actually say it. To make it known.

Sometimes I got balls. I hope it will grow again next year. Just for that particular opportunity.

Hopefully.

When we meet again
I never thought we'll be more than friends
But here we are
Stuck in between

There's a line we have not erased
Because the steps we take made it vague
We're stuck in between
Because we have fallen in

Can't go back and won't move forth
I can feel the walls are closing in
Like quicksand, it swallowed us in
Now we're stuck in between

How do we get out of this
Do we start over
Do we wipe the slate clean
Or lets just be together
You and I
We're stuck in between

Dated 27/1/11


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Kita tak tahu melangkah lagi
Setiap langkah kita adalah penerjunan
Kita relakan diri ditelan pasir jerlus
Kita benarkan diri disangkar terus

Aku tak tahu kamu
Tapi aku tanpa sedar terjerumus lahu
Aku tak pasti lagi aku
Sedang cuba kenali diri yang baru
Atau dalam diam sedang buang dulunya aku

Tak pernah diluah dengan kata
Tapi termeterai tak mampu wujud kita
Namun sempat juga tercipta ruang
Untuk rasa tanpa kita

29/1/11

The letter of the day is P.

For PARTAY!
P for perfect.
Pleased.
Patience.
Perseverence.
Present.
Praise.
P.

Best of all, the letter P is going to be pasted on the screens of cars I will be driving!

Say whatttt?! I passed my driving test! And will be getting my probational driving license next week! Alhamdulillah!

After 5 years from the first class, being pessimistic and pressured, FINALLY..... PASSED!