Kadang-kadang hampir terlepas cakap dengan sebarangan orang. Memang terus-terang, tak minat lagi nak teruskan di sini. Kalau boleh, esok mahu hantar surat minta dilepaskan. Tapi masih belum boleh. Jangan biarkan yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran. Menangis air mata darah nanti.

Sungguh aku lagi rela mula semula semuanya. Susun langkah satu-persatu. Corak laluan dari permulaan. Biar sendirian, biar tak berteman. Aku lagi rela kalau dari mula sampai tiba noktahnya aku seorangan. Aku mahu hanya sendirian.

Setahun setengah untuk mula semula. Seorang. Aku mahu itu.

There's a list of characteristic, or behaviour I've written. Some of it are these:

• Someone who is there for me - come rain, come shine.
• A person who has a temper, but only I can sooth it.
• A nameless relationship, something only we know.
• One who understands me, and vice versa.
• Always can carry a great conversation
• Makes me happy, by just being there.
• Rajin bawak pergi makan and enjoy eating too
• Can make me feel insecure, defensive because he's better than me.
• Gets along really well with my friends and family

I pernah dapat semua ni. At different time in life. I just nak cakap, apa-apa kita mintak mesti Tuhan akan bagi. Tak semestinya dan dan tu. Dia tak pernah katakan tidak. Selain Ya, Dia akan cakap bukan sekarang, atau berikan pada kita dengan cara lain. To remind us, what we want might not exactly be what we need.

I have a friend who kept saying he wants to die. Tak sanggup nak lalui macam-macam benda yang jadi. Asyik mintak mati. Dia dapat apa dia nak. Tapi bukan dia yang mati, satu-satu orang keliling dia pergi. No joke! I told him, bersebab semua tu jadi. God have bigger plans for you. That's why He gave what you wanted but not how you wanted it.

Mintak lah apa-apa. For sure dapat. Kadang-kadang lambat, sebab belum sampai masa untuk terima. Kadang-kadang lain jadinya, untuk beritahu bukan itu yang sesuai untuk kita. Yang pasti, memang ada cara kita akan terima juga. There's always a silver lining if it doesn't go your way. Remember that.

One more thing boys and girls, appreciate! Sementara ada orang atau perkara yang kita rasa tak mahu, tapi sebenarnya perlu. Kadang-kadang kita tak nampak perkara yang kita perlu, kita cuma nampak benda-benda yang kita nak. In the end, its not what we wanted that counts, its what we needed. And He knows it best!

Teeeeeeeeet! I no no has pokerface. I has Monopoly face. Because I don't play poker but Monopoly. Aku dah jadi lame. Pardon my newy developed lameness.

So anyway, after GV ended, an aunty came to me and started chatting with me. Very mengejut. berterus-terang and downright true. Its shocking weh! The conversation goes a lil like this.

"Sorry ah, aunty cakap you jangan marah. You ni very hot tempered ah. Can see from your face. Sangat senang marah. But now not so much anymore. You can control it a bit. Muka you garang, sombong. Orang dont want to tegur. But after talk with people than okaylah. Like if aunty talk to you first, then you very friendly. You outside very sombong, but actually inside lembut hati. Senang kesian. You the type will do anything for friends. Sangat sayang kawan. Betui tak? But you pilih-pilih. If you close to one person only that one lah. And also, if orang sudah buat salah dengan you, you takmau rapat lagi. You mulut cakap okay loh. Tapi hati sudah takmau.


Some more you tak suka orang control. Kalau orang tanya-tanya pigi mana, keluar ke apa, balik pukul berapa, you tak suka. Pada you asal pandai jaga diri, you tau takda buat tak elok, selamat, then okaylah. Right now you dont have a boyfriend. Got someone who likes you but you don't want. You mau fokus pelajaran. And also you ada suka satu lelaki. Tapi takda apa jadi. Sebab you taktau dia macamana. Betui tak? Dia jenis senyap lah. Tak sama macam you punya. Kalau dua-dua jenis banyak-banyak cakap senang gaduh maa"

Is that scary or what??? She randomly came up to me and gave that analysis. The best thing was it is almost 90% accurate. SERIOUSLY?

Of being the Mak Tiri for Timah and Geng Gitar Lapok.
The planner for classmates, housemates, and the usuals.
The giddy, perky groupie of Violet.
The second loudest laugh after Cassie, ahead of Mas.

Be happy wherever you are. Love you all. MAX!

My last post was about Terengganu ey? Banyak sangat dah jadi since then. I went back to Kuantan for makan besar tiap-tiap malam. Kalah Cina celebrate CNY kan? Met up with Jaja who was in Kuantan for CNY holidays too. Took her and her family to TC. Must see place kan? Haruslah. 

Lagi apa about Kuantan? Same ol' same ol' lah. Family berkumpul untuk makan. Nom nom nom. 

And also for Abang E's wedding discussion. As Juna/Alba is back, we were given the task to record the minute. Jot down details and all.

I purposely asked for myself not to be given the role of penganggar or tukang bagi telur. Taknak. I am passed that dah kot. Kot lah. Tengok-tengok itu jugak kene buat nanti kan?

And here is the beach trip in Penang last Sunday!

We actually planned to teman Intan the butterfly to The Butterfly Park for her to do some research. She will be playing a butterfly for a play so she needs to know stuff for butterfly. Gila redundant sentence aku. Macam budak sekolah rendah buat essay.

But sadly, Intan got a really high temperature on the day. So we asked her to take a rest. For the 4 of us, it was nom nom trip and Monopoly madness the whole day. We stopped at 4 places for food and drinks, and played Monopoly at 2 of them.

First we had banana leaf rice for lunch at Little India. Full MAX but we really really enjoyed the meal.Then, we went to Abu Siti Lane to get coconut jelly tapi dah habis so we bought 5 biji kelapa and filled that blue tumbler next to Tangsue. Sadly didnt get to eat the isi because red ants got to it first before us.

We went to Annalakshmi next, for drinks and Monopoly. They have the most AWESOME and FTW Mango Lassi! And we loved the environment. Its so clean, breezy and relaxing. The place is actually a cultural centre. And at the back they have a sort-off restaurant that serve vegetarian food. The best thing is they have the You-Pay-Whatever-You-Want-to-Pay-by-Donation concept. Best kaaan? We all had 2 rounds of Mango Lassi kot. Ordered the second glass even before we finish our first. Tamak kan.

Finally, ze beaaccchhh! Turun kereta, bentang tikar, Zoe terus tidur, Yonkey terus terjun masuk, Tangsue and I tried to adapt. Tangsue worst than me. Hehe. But we managed to make Tangsue get acquainted to the sea. She was not a fan (still not a fan) because she apparently have fears of the unknown and the things she can't see. In this case, dasar laut.

All in all, it was a greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttt day! If only Intan, April and Munchee can join us. Tak cukup corum. I wanna do it again prease! Love you secret beach! Love you pretty people. Kisses!