Helloooo! Dah lama gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tak bukak Blogger.
No wonder my hands are itching to write something.

Where to begin? Let's talk about my journey so far since graduation. It's been a year since I left Penang it seems. I don't remember which friends and I were talking about our achievements post-graduation. But what triggered it was the fact that our juniors are now venturing into the career world too.

In the past year, I have :-

• been working for 2 companies.
• owned 2 cars (hahaha sounds like Im making bucks huh? I wish!)
• upgraded my phone twice (due to carelessness)
• been labelled as spoilt, overseas graduated, Melayu perasan from a rich family with money to throw
• Had some rowdy nights (for work okay, I'll tell you more later)
• been blessed with positive work environment and awesome colleagues and of course cool bosses
• attended friend's weddings, A LOT of weddings! And meet old friends again!
• but alas, still no man in my life.

So far Im loving the place I'm working at. Our office is in an old building but they gave free parking space. Fun people, positive environment, cool bosses. Stable company, they pay well. They give yearly bonus and increment. There will be a company trip every year. And since we do trade exhibitions, I still get to meet people and get out of the office. Not as much as the old job, but just the right amount!

Here, I'm the Marketing Communications Exec. We are made up of 6 fun loving ladies, just as loud and cuckoo as I am! (If not more). I love the fact that they are so easy to accept me. Very accepting people. And so tolerating. They can layan my craziness and emotional behaviour. And they are all older than me!

Our office has a lot of parties! Not for other people (unlike there which I shouldn't directly mention), but for us! For every exhibition, we will have a teardown dinner. To celebrate the success of the show. And there's exhibitors parties held for our exhibitors during the respective shows. And because most of the staff here have been working for long long time, the company celebrate their service by organising anniversary parties! I will be attending MW's 25th year anniversary this Friday! The longest serving staff of MES  =)

There's 1 particular party I'm looking forward to. The Christmas party. Ohohoho! I've seen pictures of the previous Christmas gatherings, it looks super fun! There will be themes for people to dress up to, and the newest addition to the company will be ragged! In this case, it will be me. Itu je yang tak berapa. Nervous sikit.

Oh oh! Still about work, next week will be our evaluation week. Im scared! Never been evaluated before. This will be my first time. EVER! And to make matters worst, I just had a screw up last week. CRYYYYYYY! Boss, please be kind to me. I will try to be better. Its a learning process for me. Please please don't pull back your decision to give me a raise. If you haven't decide on that, please do so. I think you should. Hehehehe.

The Sales & Operations Team and our boss

From left, my Manager, my Director of Marketing and my GM

The people of MES!

Here's some pics from OGA Exhibitors' Nite

And Najah! We spent some time at OGA. 

Now both work for different companies and definitely happier =)

Im going to be really honest in this post. I think I haven't been writing enough cat out of the bag posts lately.

Let me tell you the story about my decision to don the hijab. The decision wasn't abrupt, I have thought about covering myself for a while prior to actually doing it. I didnt grow up dressing skimpy sexy or very revealing. I do have the occasional shorts, really short shorts, but never sleeveless. Although I did have the experience of wearing low cut tops.

Anyway! The time I decided to cover my hair was in my first year at USM. We had a 2 weeks break for Eid, and I just decided to grab the shawl and head to the airport. No one said anything but Im sure Mama and Abah secretly screamed Alhamdulillah.

The journey to the change was well received. I didn't had any weird questions. But I remember for a week I had adoring looks from many different people I know and dont. Looking back, I believe I made the right choice.

Especially because things started to get harder from there. My challenge was never about the need to show my hair again. It was about being modest in terms of character. I have never been the poise, demure type. Im loud, I like having fun, I laugh the loudest and Im always agreeable to nights out or a lepak session. I had a fair share of that back in Penang. I go places. I do things unlady-like, and obviously not portraying a modest, covered, Muslim woman at all. I want to leave all that in Penang.

But, I live in KL. Where most people say they become culture shock. I became culture shocked in Penang. Hahahaha. So those things never really left me. Now I work in the events line. I joined the bigger league. Upgraded. Bigger, older, more experienced players.

And they see right through. I was told by one that I recently hang out with. "Hani, you got into the wrong department. Yes, you may be able to do the work. But its not you. Bukan jiwa kau. You like working with the boys. You are aggressive. And I can definitely picture you with yellow boots commanding everyone."

Damn. Maybe he's right.

I believe in chances, but sometimes I don't believe myself. I know I am able to do the work, but what I know more is that I will not be able to decline temptations long term. The other side of work means another type of leisure. One that is attractive but not always right.

In that case, I put my faith in God. And this piece of cloth on my head. To remind myself. And to restraint my actions. InsyaAllah.

And I now ask myself. He who you thought will be for you, will end up with you, will always just be there, is speaking of marriage.
To the next girl he falls in love with.
So what do you do? Wait for that feelings to come?
Falling instantly in love doesnt happen to everyone.
The magnetic pull attract only a certain.
And realising you've been in love with that person all these years, .............

Hwaa, deep.

Hello hi!

This pemalas person have been too malas to blog of late because

1. I dont go online using my laptop anymore, now its just phone and iPad and its no fun to write without a proper keyboard kan?
2. I write on Twitter? (can that pass as a reason?)
3. There's too much that happened but not really blog worthy.
4. Nah, I just don't feel sharing. Life is content when you dont try to seek that much attention anymore.

In a nutshell, I would have to agree with Pakchaq when he once said that blog tempat orang cari perhatian,

So anyway! This post is to explain where, how, and why Wallpak is being used by E, Ya and I.

Terasa terpanggil nak explain when E blogged about it here.

In USM, I am close to Kimi and Syafiq. One time we went out with their mutual friend Jali. Kimi and Jali are from Kelantan and they have a friend with an unsignificant name I cannot remember. That friend will blurt WALLPAK! When he is angry or mad at something. We don't know what it means. Even Kimi and Jali do not know, they just laughed at him.

So Kimi, Jali, Syafiq and I assumed that Wallpak is the friend's version of WTF. Get it? Doesnt't it sound similar and almost had the same effect?

And since that night I decided I want to use Wallpak instead of using WTF too. More sopan since its not actually cussing. Heh heh heh.

THE END

Nur Dhaniah,
When your abang Sufian Mikhail left, Wawa was in Penang.
I regret I did not manage to meet him.
But I met you. And loved you.

Baby D,
I am sorry I did not spend enough time with you.
To get to know you.
To play with you.
But indeed, I love you.

Lil Star,
The Maker loves you more.
Be happy with your brother in heaven.
We will still love you. Both of you.

Pinkcess,
We will see you again.
That is certain.
For now, our love and prayers accompany you.
To heaven.

Al-Fatihah.