I kena tukar preference lah.

Channel my interest to the type of people yang others don't like.

Always, it will be the one everyone has eyes for.

Tak extraordinary langsung I ni. Need to be unconventional.

Tapi yang others don't like tu sah-sah for concrete reasons kan?

Pervert. Lame. Literal stalker. Annoying. Abuser. Dumb.

Lagiiiiiilah not the type for me.

My uncle, Achik K'ry once said "Find someone smarter than you"

I don't see myself as smart. Not Sheldon smart. But I do read a lot. So that can account to be said as acknowledgeable, I guess. I secretly hold on to that because I do believe I need to feel insecure with the other half. He has to be better so that I can't be superior. I should not be the one wearing the pants.

Susah okay to find smart guys but normal at the same time.

No no robots please.

But tall, thin, dark hair, fair skin guys are always welcomed!

Motif sekarang baru nak tulis camni?

Sebab rasa yang ada dah pergi =)

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Okay now isu berhijab. Kawan-kawan I super awesome okay! In chronological order:

Last week, I went out for a sushi lunch with friends. Tengah-tengah makan, one of them pointed out that I was covering my head but wearing a short sleeve shirt. Terus I insecure because I usually will wear a cardigan over my short sleeve shirts, but had rushed and forgotten about it. Thanks! Its a reminder for myself. I love you for being blunt and straight forward about it. =)

Few days back through YM, another friend hesitantly asked if I am still wearing hijab? I said yes. And she asked again, "even in KL?" Of course I do! Turns out she saw the recently uploaded pictures from last year and before Eid. Times when I have not made my transition and assumed I only cover my hair in Penang. Thank you for your concern. InsyaAllah this is for the long haul.

And today, my bestfriend shot me through twitter. "Mana tudung kau?" Fine lah! I changed the display pic to the one sans tudung. Old picture. Memang cari bahana sendiri. Sayang kau!

Okay first things first. Whatever! Tak suka jangan baca. Memang agak tak senonoh post kali ni.

So yesterday, I lepak-ed at my friends room and she randomly asked, "Hani cuba senyum, nak tengok pipi. I did and told her that I have chubby cheeks. And she replied, "tu lah sebab tu dada kau tinggi." Motif???

Menurut my friend itu, female face features are actually hints for the female private areas. That's why female wear purdah. Not only to block their nostril from the dust and sand it seems.

So yeah,

Cheeks - keanjalan dan kemantapan boobs

Eyebrows - errr the pubic hair

Size of mouth - size of vulva

There's something about the nose too, but she can't remember. Betul atau tak? Wallahualam!

In the mean time, feed your curiosity! Here's my favourite girls.

There's something I've been keeping to myself. Kerana bukan semua orang boleh terima.

And this, to me is too personal. This is the most private I've been.

Not a word here. Just random thoughts on twitter.

I don't know how it came to be.

All I know is, now I'm empty.

And I only have myself to heal me.

Forlorn. Anguish. Despair. Abandonment. Nausea.

ABSURD!

Eh keluar hibernasi lah sekejap. This can't wait.

I cadangkan ye... Kalau tak suka I, jangan kawan I.

Takpe I tak kesah pun. I memang jenis friendly, so kalau kita TERkawan dan you tak minat nak berkawan dengan I, buat-buat tak kenal sudah.

Tak perlu cerita belakang. Atau buat cerita pasal I. You cerita kat kawan-kawan jugak.

Eh malaslah! I malas nak dengar apa orang cakap pasal I. Nanti I pulak yang berfikir buruk.

Pastu I pulak yang bawak mulut, jadi sama macam you. Kan?

Camnilah, delete je I dari Facebook. Kalau terjumpa buat-buat tak nampak.

Apahal entah nak jealous kat I?

Typical Melayu. (I Melayu jugak okay? I tak suka stereotype ni, tapi wth?)

Esok kalau I regret writing this, I'll just delete it. But today, I really need to let it out.

God! Tak fahamlah!

Too much has happened and I just dont feel like writing it out.

Yang dekat dan rapat, tahulah.

I've decided to keep this on hiatus.

Lagi pun exam kan? Konon-konon boleh lah.

I found a date to reblog. Tu je nak bagitau.

17 days to go.

Till then.